The Long Ride – Part 3

After last night’s encounter with the group of thugs, I was quite shaken. I didn’t know, however, what day three would hold in store for me…

I still kept to my people watching, and I still made up stories about my few lonely companions during the quieter hours, but not in an overly obvious and annoying fashion.

That’s how I came to notice a certain woman. She was middle-aged, wore a long skirt and a blue woolen sweater, and kept her hair tied in a ponytail.

At first glance, there was nothing wrong with her or her behavior. She was just another normal passenger, getting on the tram at point A and getting off at point B.

Things turned strange, however, when I noticed her entering the tram again at a later station further along the line.

At first I thought I was mistaken, and my eyes were playing tricks on me. This was a big city. Many people lived here, and I was sure some of them looked similar.

Yet as I watched her, I noticed the same skirt, the same sweater, and even the pony tail. No, this was, without a doubt, the same person.

This was impossible. How in the hell had she got here within ten minutes, a good kilometer from where she’d gotten off?

I couldn’t help but shiver, as I watched her getting off again a few stations later, and felt the hairs on the back of my neck stand up when she reentered the tram yet again, after a good fifteen.

In total, she entered the tram on seven entirely different locations throughout the city in about an hour and a half.

She was, however, not the only one. There were others like her, almost a dozen in total.

One was an older man, about fifty years of age. He wore a suit, carried a briefcase, and I saw him a total of five times.

Some were children, just laughing children who entered the tram on their own, then left it, and then entered it again a few stations later.

They only ever appeared when the tram was empty or almost empty, at least that’s when I caught sight of them. Whenever I did, however, I felt the hairs on the back of my neck stand up. Yet they did nothing strange, never looked at me or even approached me. They just rode the tram.

At one point, my eyes met those of an older woman during her fourth ‘iteration,’ as I came to call it, but she didn’t even bat an eye, and gave me no attention at all.

Still, this was one of the most unsettling things I’d noticed so far, and I tried my best to stay clear of these people.

Another strange passenger was a young man, dressed entirely in black.

I first noticed him in the early evening hours. He entered the tram and stayed on it, just like I did. For long hours, he just sat there, in the same seat.

At times, he stared outside, but at others, he watched the people around him, and occasionally, I even found him staring my way. When he did, an unexplainable wave of fear washed over me, and I couldn’t help but squirm in my seat. He gave me the feeling of being a trapped animal, of being prey.

The reason was his face. He wasn’t merely staring, but grinning, always grinning a comically wide grin that almost divided his face. He wasn’t grinning at anyone, however. Instead, he seemed just to grin to himself. It was the strangest thing.

At one point, I watched as he leaned forward, pushing his face so close to the woman sitting next to him, it almost touched hers.

I noticed how uncomfortable she was, but she never spoke up. She just sat there, squirming in her seat nervously, almost as if she didn’t see the guy.

She was, however, far from his only victim. He did the same to countless other passengers, and none of them called him out on his behavior.

The longer this went on, the longer I watched what he was doing, the more often I found him staring at me.

As much as I told myself to ignore him, to not attract attention; I just couldn’t. I was driven by the strangest sense of curiosity. This guy, whoever he was , or… whatever he was, he was just wrong.

It was shortly past midnight when I noticed the change. For the first time, the guy wasn’t grinning to himself anymore. No, now he was grinning right at me. I saw how he leaned forward in his seat, his hands on his seat, as if he was about to push himself upward at any moment.

I tried my best to stare outside, to ignore him, but whenever I took a sideway glance, he was still there, still grinning at me and each time, his grin seemed to have grown wider.

Eventually, when I couldn’t take it anymore, I was about to get up, to leave my trusty row of seats behind and flee to the back of the tram. Then I stopped. The strangest of feelings washed over me, one that told me I should stay right where I was. Somehow, I knew that if I were to get up right now, he’d get me.

It sounds ridiculous, but I knew. I saw the anticipation on his face, the way his feet shuffled over the ground and his posture, ready to pounce on me the moment I’d get up.

Finally, after half an hour of this game of sitting duck had passed, he just got up and left the tram.

Outside, he simply walked off without so much as looking back at me.

Even now, I’ve got no clue what the hell was wrong with that guy. Maybe it was just some asshole trying to fuck with me, but somehow, I feel, he was something far worse.

Yet, as terrifying as this half-hour encounter was, it shouldn’t be the most terrifying thing I’d witness on day three.

It was later that night, as I sat in my seat, unable to fall asleep, that I noticed the first change in scenery.

I told myself it was because it was night time and because of the darkness, but I’d ridden this damned tram for two and a half days by now. I knew the area it passed through. Hell, I knew what buildings were at what station!

Station 17: a giant mall.

Station 44: an old hardware store.

And so on.

Yet that night, I occasionally saw new areas, areas that were… different.

At one point, the tram passed through a street which was lined by nothing but giant, derelict tower blocks. Before long, even the tram tracks themselves seemed to deteriorate.

The tram rambled on through this forlorn area, shaking slightly, without ever stopping at any station. We must’ve been there for at least ten minutes without ever stopping at a station, which I know is impossible. On the way back, we never passed that area again, almost as if it never existed.

At other times, the tram took bends and went around corners that shouldn’t be there, and drove on through constricted, half-hidden streets and alleys that seemed almost too small for it to pass.

Whenever we reached one of these strange places, I couldn’t help but stare outside, strangely curious about them. Some streets were so narrow, the tram was only a few inches away from the walls of the building, allowing me to steal glances through open doors and windows.

What I saw was… utterly surreal, and made me question if I was even awake, or if all of this was nothing but a weird dream, conjured by two nights of barely catching any sleep and perpetually being stuck in a tram.

In one window, I was greeted by four people. They weren’t just inside their apartment, but were leaning out the window, their faces almost pressed against the passing tram. Their eyes were empty, their faces without any emotion. Yet when they were right beside me, I couldn’t help but inch away from the tram’s windows, afraid they might do… something.

In another window, one belonging to a tiny, inconspicuous building, I saw a giant hall that seemed without end. I saw only the floor, but no walls or ceiling. It just continued on seemingly endlessly, and was much, much too large for the building that contained it. Yet from the far back, off in the darkness of the most distant parts of that hall, I thought I saw eyes watching me.

Eventually, the tram approached a station in one such area, and then came to a halt.

Outside, I saw a strange figure. At first, I thought it was a drunk person, or maybe someone disabled, given their strange posture and gait. Then my eyes adjusted, and I realized something was entirely wrong with that figure.

It was some sort of deformed… thing. Its limbs were bent at strange angles, seemed to have too many joints in them and sprouted from places they shouldn’t.

As the tram stood there, it crooked its head slightly in my direction. Then its head pushed forward, its neck stretching further and further, much further than should be possible.

Sweat broke out all over my body as I found the ghastly creature measuring me up and down. This time, it wasn’t just fear that came over me, but full on panic. My body started shaking uncontrollably, and I had to cling to the seat in front of me to somehow keep the panic at bay, to not freak out completely at the surreal sight outside.

Slowly, the thing moved, approached the tram door on its long, spidery limbs and I already saw it entering the tram, saw it coming for me.

As it took these few select steps, I hoped, prayed, it would stay where it was. I think in the state I was in, I spoke, probably yelled those words repeatedly through the empty tram. Until, thankfully, the doors closed, and we left the waking nightmare behind.

For the next minutes, I just sat in my seat, my eyes closed, my knees below my chin and rocking back and forth like a scared little child. Eventually, when I opened my eyes again, all was normal, and the tram continued on its usual route, and did so for the rest of the night.

By now, it’s early morning. I haven’t been able to sleep yet, I couldn’t. Whenever I was about to doze off, I was afraid I’d end up at some unfamiliar surreal location again, and this time, the creature would actually enter the tram.

Instead, I spent the last hour typing this all out to calm myself down.

To be honest, I thought about giving up, to just get off and call it quits after what had happened. But then, I thought about it. I was on day three, on day freaking three. If I stopped now, my friends would never let it go.

Most important of all, however, as scary as these experiences were, they were also strangely fascinating. If I’d got off now, I’d probably regret it and wonder what else I might have seen on the Long Ride.

So I guess I’ll keep going for a while longer. See you all tomorrow.

The Long Ride – Part 2

Well, the second day of my little journey is over, the one I came to call the Long Ride, and boy, do I have to tell you a few things. Things took a turn for the worse, but more on that later.

After sitting in a tram for over twenty-four hours, I realized just how beautiful my city truly is. It’s breathtaking, full of old architecture, nice little parks, and a riverside panorama few other cities can compare to.

That morning, I actually took my very first toilet break. I don’t know how I lasted that long, but let me tell you, the moment I went, it was heaven.

The early hours of the day went by as usual. Once again, the tram was overcrowded, and a few times I noticed people staring at me angrily for not getting off my seat or at least moving my giant backpack aside.

Well, tough luck. This row is my home for this entire week. Before you ask, yes, I specifically chose where I sat. Second tram car, third row from the back.

The first interesting to happen that day was an encounter with an older man.

He must’ve entered the tram between nine and ten in the morning. I only remember because I’d just taken another short video for my friends, and when I looked back up from the phone, there he was, sitting only a few rows ahead of me. It seemed almost as if he’d just appeared out of nowhere.

Must’ve snuck in at the last stop, I reasoned.

Strangely enough, he just sat there as the tram continued on to the end of the line station, and remained seated as the tram turned around and went back the way it came from.

I couldn’t help but smile a little, but was also a bit confused. Were there other people who did the same dumb thing I did? Just riding the tram back and forth for no reason?

Well, who knows, maybe he’s just a bored old man with nothing to do. Maybe he just enjoys tram rides or the scenery, or, hell, he doesn’t mind getting on the tram early and taking a brief detour before reaching his destination.

I tried not to be bothered by him, but whenever I looked up from my book, he was still there, going back and forth and back again with me.

As I munched on another sandwich and some crackers, I couldn’t help but stare at the back of his head. It was two in the afternoon, and by now, he must’ve been on the tram for at least four hours. What the hell was he doing?

I’m not going to lie. He unnerved me a little.

A few minutes later, he got up, and I breathed a sigh of relief, thinking he was about to get off.

Instead, he came and took a seat near me and turned his bald head towards me. I noticed that something was wrong with him.

His eyes looked glassy, almost hazy. The weirdest part, however, was his outfit. It just… didn’t fit. Not on his body, I mean, but in the twenty-first century. It reminded me of something I’d once seen in an old family photo album, a style popular multiple decades ago, long even before the reunion.

“Interesting to see someone here for as long as me,” he finally said.

I just stared at him, surprised by the gentle, well-meaning tone of his voice.

“Oh yeah, it’s… I guess a dare between friends? To see how long I can last.”

“Young people these days,” he mused. “But I sure did my share of stupid things back in my days.”

“How come you’re on so long yourself? Are you enjoying the ride, the scenery?”

He was quiet, and for a few moments, he just stared outside, watching the city pass by.

“Well, you aren’t wrong, young man. I’ve been on here for quite some time, longer than I’d ever have guessed, but it’s interesting to see things change. New lines, new stations. Feels just like yesterday that I rode on line five to the main station…”

What he just said made no sense. There was no line five. Sure, there’d been one, but it was discontinued over two decades ago.

“Wasn’t line five discontinued?”

“Ah, yes, you’re right. But once you’ve been here for as long as me, you sometimes forget these types of things.”

“What do you…? How long have you been here?”

For some reason, I suddenly felt cold. Something didn’t add up. Not just his hazy eyes or his outfit, but the things he said.

“Much too long, young man, but that’s just how it is for some of us. We can ride on and on, but we’ll never reach our destination.”

“The hell’s that supposed to-?”

“You should be careful, young man. This place, like any others has its dangers, especially for those who stay on for too long,” he said, getting up.

I said nothing. I could only watch as he walked on and entered the tram car ahead of me.

Then, for only a single second, what I saw changed. It was only for the blink of an eye, but it made me cringe in terror and I felt myself break into a cold sweat.

What had been a nicely dressed older man before now turned into a mangled, twisted corpse. Its upper body was caved in, almost torn apart. Its arms were dangling at its side, broken entirely. The worst, however, were its legs. They were nothing but a mass of ground flesh and bone.

Then it was over, and once again, I saw nothing but an old man. He turned to me once more, a well-knowing, sad look on his face before he gave me a little nod as if to say ‘be careful.’

Right at that moment, my phone vibrated, notifying me about a new message. I jerked and almost dropped it before I turned back towards the old man, or rather, where he’d been.

He was gone.

I scanned the train ahead of me, then behind me, but I saw nothing. He’d just… vanished.

I couldn’t help but shiver. What the hell had just happened? I thought about the mangled, twisted version of him I’d seen, the things he’d talked about. Had I just been visited by a freaking… ghost?

For the rest of the day, I couldn’t stop thinking about him. In the afternoon, the tram filled up again, then emptied out before the process repeated itself in the evening.

As it turned late, I settled back in my seat, put on some low music, and prepared myself for another couple hours of rest, hopefully a few more than yesterday.

As I sat there, I watched the few other late night passengers on the tram with me. In my mind, I gave them names and made up stories about them.

Right there, a few seats ahead of me, sat Jenny, a young woman in her mid-twenties who was on her way home after a late shift at the nursing home. Further ahead sat old Rupert, a bachelor in his early sixties who’d just enjoyed a performance at the state theater with a group of friends.

It was strange, but I almost felt a connection with these people, as if they were my people, the citizens of Tramonia, a nation comprising nothing but this one lone tram, going back and forth forever.

A few minutes later, a group of guys got on, guys who were clearly drunk. They were a loud, rowdy bunch, walking up and down the tram car, howling obscenities, and dangling from handrails like the idiots they were.

Almost unconsciously I felt myself drawn to them, and couldn’t help but watch them. They were breaking the laws of Tramonia, I thought, and would need to be punished.

As I sat there, half-nodding off, staring at them, I tried to come up with ideas on how Tramonia would handle crime and how those who’d committed them would be punished.

I didn’t realize that one of them had long noticed me staring at them. His expression wasn’t normal, not one of mild curiosity. No, he looked pissed, or at least up for trouble.

“The fuck you staring at asshole!?” he called out to me.

I jerked up in my seat, averting my eyes, but I could already hear them coming my way.

Shit, now I’d done it.

“Yo, bro, what’s up?” one of them brought out as he sat down in front of me.

I didn’t say a thing, and instead tried my best to ignore them.

“Hey, we’re talking to you!” his friend spat at me.

“Nothing, just on my way home,” I mumbled.

“Oh yeah, is that so?” the one in front of me said in a sing-song voice.

I gave him another ‘yeah,’ and tried my best to stare out the window. This promptly landed me a slap against the back of the head.

“What the fuck are you-?”

I couldn’t even finish the curse because one of them grabbed me by the throat, raising his fist.

“You think you can fuck with us, asshole?”

Right at that moment, the driver’s voice could be heard via the intercom, telling them to knock it off.

The guys stared at each other in surprise, but didn’t move, and neither did they release me.

A second announcement by the driver followed soon after, this one more serious. He assured them he was ready to stop them tram here and now, and call the cops should they not back down immediately.

Finally, I was released, and after throwing me another set of insults, the three of them walked away. A few stations later, they thankfully got off the tram for good, but nothing without sending me a few more angry glances.

When we pulled into the end of the line station, a place where trams would occasionally power down during the late hours of the night, the driver approached me.

“Hey there, not to bother you, but I’ve noticed you’ve been on the tram for quite a while. What exactly are you up to?”

“Well, I’m trying to get home, but-“

“You’ve been trying to get home for the past five hours?”

Shit, he got me.

“All right, no. To be honest, it’s a bet,” I started, giving him an embarrassed little laugh.

He raised his eyebrows, waiting for me to continue.

“I told my friends I’d be able to stay on the tram for an entire week without getting off.”

For a moment, he just stared at me, then furrowed his brow before he spoke again.

“That’s the dumbest freaking thing I’ve ever heard,” he said, shaking his head.

“Yeah, it really is,” I agreed.

“Well, not like I can kick you off for something like this. You’ve got a ticket on you, right?”

“Sure thing, got myself a weekly pass just for the Long Ride.”

Once more, he raised his eyebrows, and I was quick to tell him it was the name I came up with.

“Well, it’s dumb, really freaking dumb, but as long as you don’t cause any trouble, that’s it. Just try to stay clear of guys like the ones before.”

“Sure thing, boss.”

With that, the conversation was over and the driver went outside to have a smoke or two.

About half an hour later, the tram started up again, and the ride continued.

That’s day number two, guys. See you all tomorrow.

The Long Ride – Part 1

I came up with the idea for the Long Ride a few days ago. My friends and I had met up on Friday evening to hang out, share some stories, and, of course, to have a few beers.

Before long, I ended up completely plastered. As I sat there, trying my best to not fall off my chair, my friend said something that got the gears in my brain turning, albeit slowly.

“I’m sure I can do it,” I brought out drunkenly.

“Do what?” one of my friends, Alex, asked, turning to me.

“What that Punchy guy did, the thing Derek just mentioned, about riding the subway back and forth.”

“It’s Pynchon, dude,” Derek corrected me with a sigh. “And he didn’t do it. He just wrote about it in one of his books.”

“Yeah, whatever, but I’m sure I can do it, too! And I can do it for an entire week,” I slurred.

“The hell you even talking about?”

“Riding the tram back and forth without getting off,” I said.

“Why’d you even do that?”

“Because I fucking can!”

“This has got to be the dumbest thing you ever came up with…” Derek mumbled.


That’s how it started. The next I woke up with a head-splitting headache and utterly hungover, but, of course, I remembered what I’d said, and, of course, I was set on doing it.

When I hit up my friends via WhatsApp and told them I was going to do it, they were less than enthusiastic, and didn’t even seem to care.

I was, however, and I spent the rest of the weekend getting ready for the Long Ride. I’d spend an entire week on the tram without getting off!

Well, almost getting off, I thought, and came up with a simple set of rules, which I promptly shared with my friends in a newly created WhatsApp group.

First, no getting off the tram, not to go home, and not to get supplies. The only exception was to go to the toilet, which I only allowed myself to do at one specific station.

I also told my friends I’d update them with a short video every hour, so they’d know I was still on the tram.

The more I thought about it, the more I realized how right my friends were. This really was the dumbest thing I’d ever come up with. Yet I was also very, very excited about what might happen.

After what happened today, what I saw, and what else I might see over the course of this week, I decided to share this journey with you guys.


This morning, at 8am I entered my tram line of choice, line 4. It was by far the single longest line, going from one end of the city, all the way to the other, a single one-way trip lasting roughly an hour and a half.

I also made sure to come prepared and stocked up on pretty much anything I might need. I’d gotten my Kindle ready, a couple of books, three fully charged power banks, enough food and water to hopefully last me a week, and a single change of clothes just in case. All of this, I’d put away in a gigantic camping backpack half the size of a person.

In the early morning, the city’s trams are a crowded hell, filled to the brim with people going to work and students on their way to school and university.

Having been lucky enough, I found myself a seat and settled down with my giant backpack. Then I put in my headphones and blasted music into my ear to drown out the general bustle around me.

That morning, nothing strange happened, and I was quite happy when the tram grew emptier, and more people got off until only a dozen remained.

For the first time in a long while, I actually looked at my surroundings, the city, and the other people on the tram. Usually, I was occupied with my phone or my Kindle.

Yet the first hours of the Long Ride went by relatively uneventfully.

The only thing of note that happened was that an older lady sat down near me when I took out one of the many sandwiches I’d prepared for myself. She ranted on and on how I wasn’t allowed to eat on the tram, and pointed at a row of prohibition signs above us.

I simply ignored her and continued eating with a slight grin on my face. Before long, she left me be, shaking her head and went away shaking her head and cursing how us ‘young people don’t know no manners anymore.’

Yea, fuck you too, lady.

She was on the tram for another half hour and for the entire duration, she stared daggers at me. Yet she at least didn’t follow through on her promise to inform the driver and have me kicked off. That would’ve been a rather anticlimactic ending to the Long Ride, I thought, laughing.

The first truly strange thing, and the reason I’m posting this happened in the afternoon. Even now, though, as I’m typing this out, I’m not sure what I saw.

In the afternoon, the tram filled with people once more. Some are students from the nearby university, others people getting of work, and of course, children on their way home after a long day at school.

One group in particular caught my interest. It was a group comprising seven kids, a loud group. They were laughing, yelling at each other, blasting music, and jumping around.

I hated them.

As I watched them with growing disdain, I noticed that two of them looked exactly the same. Brothers, I reasoned, most likely twins.

The behavior of the two, however, couldn’t have been more different.

One of them was as energetic as the rest while the other just stood there, not moving at all, watching the rest, who seemed to ignore him entirely.

At first I thought nothing of it, but the longer I watched him, the stranger the whole thing felt. Then slowly, ever so slowly, the child’s face grew from a dejected, uninterested look to a grin, an almost hungry grin, one directed at his brother.

This went on for almost fifteen minutes. His friends never noticed his weird behavior, and similarly the child never noticed me staring. As much as I told myself he was just a child being a child, I couldn’t help but find the entire situation weird, surreal, even.

That face-splitting grin. It wasn’t normal. This wasn’t what a child should look like. Hell, could look like!

I leaned forward, took out my phone and was about to take a picture when the tram came to a halt. Amongst the general bustle, I lost track of the kids who left the tram amongst a multitude of other people.

Eventually I saw them again, outside at the station. I noticed something right away. By now, there were only six of them, not seven.

One of the brothers, the twins, was gone. The other just stood out there next to his group of friends, not doing anything.

A second later, the tram doors closed. In that instant, the kid’s head jerked in my direction. His eyes were wide, his face still distorted by the same twisted grin, and he was staring right at me, and only me. And then, he opened his mouth, wider than should be possible, and jumped forward, as if to throw himself through the glass.

I cringed back in terror, away from the window, almost toppling over my backpack and sending a handful of supplies onto the floor of the tram. Within moments, and thanks to a few helpful other passengers, I was quick to pick everything up.

When I stared back, however, the kid was gone, and was now hurrying after his group of friends, seemingly without a care in the world.

Even now, I don’t know what to make of this. I told myself he was just being a kid, just being stupid after he’d noticed me staring at him. That face, however, that mouth…

The thing that has me most worried, however, was the number of kids. I knew there had been seven before, and only six of them got off.

For long minutes, I scanned the interior of the tram, trying to find the missing kid and to see if he’d stayed behind on his own. Yet there was no hint of him. He seemed to have vanished.

The general bustle of the day soon evened out as afternoon turned into evening. Then picked up once more when people set out to hit the bars, or to meet up with friends.

I nodded off at about eleven in the evening.

I was jerked awake long past two in the morning when I was almost pulled off my seat. When I opened my eyes, I found myself face to face with some asshole who’d tried to take a hold of my backpack.

Yet I was no idiot. Before I’d gone to sleep, I’d made sure to carefully wrap the backpack’s strap around my arm.

For a few seconds, the guy just stared at me, a dumbfounded look on his face before he realized what was going on. A moment later, when the tram came to a stop, he rushed away and outside.

I could only stare at him. The fucker had just tried to steal my shit.

After he was gone, I checked the backpack’s contents to make sure none of them were gone.

Then I took out my phone and typed this all out. And now, I’m just sitting here, trying to catch some sleep.

If I witness any other strange things, or something else of interest happens, I’ll keep you all updated.

Oneiria

I met her during my first time at a club. It was quite the strange experience. I’d never been out dancing before, had never even gotten drunk and didn’t know the first thing about drugs.

You see, I grew up in an extremely religious household; church every Sunday, praying before every meal, all of it.

I didn’t mind these things so much. What I did mind was her constant talk about sins, temptation, the devil and going to hell. I heard it pretty much every day, and at least once a week, she’d promised me I’d be going to hell for… something. I absolutely hated it and it was what drove me to become interested in paganism, and in witches.

It was only natural that when I finally moved on to college, I’d major in religious studies with a focus on paganism.

College was a revelation for me. For the first time, I got away from home, away from mom’s obsession with Christ, and I could figure out who I really was and wanted to be. But also, to try out a few things I’d never dared before.

I loved the college lifestyle. My fellow students were all so different from the people I grew up around. Alcohol, drugs, and alternative lifestyles were big amongst them. Yet as much as I pride myself about trying new things and going wild, I didn’t. While I hated mom’s talk about sin, I was, deep inside, a mousy little thing, shy and reclusive, reluctant to try anything new.

It was my friend Emily who eventually convinced me to tag along when she went to one of her favorite clubs. It was a back alley scene club; the type frequented by the weirder and more alternative parts of the population.

It would be an understatement to say I felt like I didn’t belong there.

After we’d entered, Emily was quick to order us each a beer and, before she promptly vanished to ‘mingle,’ as she called it, and I was left to my own devices.

For the next hour, I just stood at the edge of the dance floor, half-heartedly drinking my beer and watching people. The air was heavy with the smell of sweat and alcohol and the loud booming music reverberated painfully inside my head.

After a while, I noticed a guy eying me. He gave me a drunken smile before he awkwardly danced in front of me. I sighed. He’d probably noticed my bored, dejected look, and was hoping for an ‘easy’ win.

I rolled my eyes and tried my best to ignore his advances, hoping he’d give up soon enough.

When that didn’t work, I fled to a different floor. For some reason, however, he kept following me. Regardless of where I went, he soon found me and lingered nearby.

It was Melinda who saved me.

I’d just settled down on a couch in one of the club’s quieter areas, the smoking area, as I should soon find out. After only a minute, the same creepy guys stumbled in as well.

Before he could approach me, however, a woman set down next to me.

She was absolutely gorgeous. For a second, all my memories of and the feelings I’d had for a girl during high school, resurfaced, and my heart skipped a beat. Yet I could tell right away that this woman was so much more than she could’ve ever been.

Her outfit was simplistic, almost too much so, nothing but a tank top and shorts, but it fit her perfectly. She had cropped blond hair with a few darker strands mixed into it. Her most stunning feature, however, were her eyes. They were bright green, and seemed to focus on me and me alone, almost as if she was staring into me.

“You new here? Haven’t seen you around?” she half-whispered at me, giving me a coy little smile.

Instead of answering, I just stared at her. When I realized what I was doing, I quickly looked away, took a big sip of beer, and then focused on the creepy guy again. He was sitting on a couch nearby, pretending to mind his own business, but I noticed his short, side-way glances.

The woman next to me turned in his direction as well.

“Just ignore him. He’ll give up soon enough.”

Just as she said this, the guy suddenly got off and walked away.

“See? It’s just that easy. I’m Melinda, by the way.”

“Oh, my name is, I mean, I’m Claire. Nice to meet you,” I brought out, stumbling over my words.

Melinda giggled. Then she reached into her purse, brought out a pack of cigarettes, lit one and leaned back. After two pulls, she held the cigarette out for me.

I wasn’t a smoker, had never even touched a cigarette, but still took it, almost unconsciously. I started coughing right away.

Laughing, Melinda took it back.

For the next minute, I just sat there, next to her, entranced by her, and watched as she exhaled cloud after cloud of bluish-grey smoke.

Once she’d finished her cigarette, she got up, but handed me another one.

“Just so you don’t forget me. See you later, little Claire.”

With that, she went on her way back to wherever she’d come from.

I was left sitting there, cigarette in hand, staring after her.

For long minutes, I tried to make sense of the encounter and the many conflicting feelings inside of me.

Eventually, a clearly drunk Emily found me again.

“I didn’t know you smoked, Claire,” she said.

“I don’t. Oh, this? Yeah, no it’s… never mind,” I said, shaking my head before I carefully put the cigarette into my purse.

We were at the club for another hour. While Emily was dancing and having fun, my eyes wandered around, looking for Melinda. Yet she seemed to have vanished.

For the next few days, I couldn’t get her out of my head. I don’t know what it was, but there was something special about Melinda. The way she carried herself, her confidence, but also other, smaller things I’d noticed about her. Around her wrist, she’d worn a small, pearly armband, and I’d also noticed the purple healing stone fastened to her necklace. It made me wonder if she might be interested in the same things I was.

I was back at the club a week later. This time, on my own.

For long minutes, I walked from floor to floor, desperately trying to find her, but there was no hint of her.

Frustrated, I went back to the smoking area and found myself an empty seat. There I sat, brooding, and eventually pulled out the cigarette Melinda had handed me a week ago. As my thoughts drifted away, I absentmindedly rolled it between my fingers, playing with it.

“Need a light?”

In surprise, I dropped the cigarette. When I turned around, I saw Melinda. Somehow, without even noticing, she’d found me and sat down right next to me.

“So, you’re smoking now?”

“No. Well, I guess?” I said, giving her a little shrug.

Then I picked up the cigarette and held it out for her to light. Of course, I coughed again, but somehow, with each pull, and with Melinda next to me, it seemed to get easier.

That night, we started talking, and that night I got to know her.

As I’d thought, Melinda shared many of my interests. Yet the way she went about them was much more intense. She was much more intense.

While I read books on pagan rituals, collected healing stones, and made my own witchy jewelry and accessories, she’d gone much deeper.

She talked about rituals, too, but the ones she herself had performed. She’d go on about real magic, real witches, different planes and places, places, she said, where magic originated from.

Talking to her was nothing short of enthralling, almost intoxicating. Eventually, as night turned to early morning, we exchanged phone numbers, and, a moment later, Melinda was gone again.

We ended up texting all throughout the week. Melinda told me more about the things she’d done, recommended me books, but also shared a few niche blogs on astral projection I might be interested in.

Yet there was one thing she was steadfast about. If I truly wanted to learn, to become enlightened, as she put it, I’d have to do the real thing.

When I asked her if she was talking about some sort of ritual, all I got was a little emoticon. Then, a few seconds later, she added a simple ‘You’ll find out on Saturday. Same place, same time?’

That’s just how she was, always a tad bit mysterious, but I’d have to lie if I didn’t like it. Before I knew it, I’d already sent her a yes.

When Saturday evening arrived, I headed for the club right away. This time, I didn’t waste any time looking for her, but headed straight for the smoking area.

Melinda was already there, waiting for me. She sat on a couch in the back, staring at me with her bright, green eyes and bidding me to join her.

“So, the real deal? What is it? You want us to do some sort of weird dance ritual?” I asked, laughing a little.

“Oh no, little Claire, it’s something much, much better.”

With that, her hand vanished inside her purse, and then, careful to hide it from the other people in the smoking area, produced a small Ziploc bag containing a strangely growing powder.

For a moment, I just stared at it, not understanding. When my brain functioned again, I realized what she was holding.

“Wait. No way, Melinda, that stuff… I can’t.”

“There’s a first for everything,” Melinda said in a sing-song voice, giving me another one of her seductive smiles.

For the first time, her smile didn’t work on me.

“No, really. This,” I said, holding up the cigarette I was smoking, “sure, but not that.”

I grew angry, furious even. Was this the reason she’d talked to me? Was all this a ploy to get me hooked on some sort of weird designer drug?

In my anger, I was about to get up, but felt Melinda’s hand close around my wrist.

“Oh, but don’t you want to learn more? This stuff here, this Oneiria, is the way to go, the way to learn, little Claire.”

I was still angry with her, but then I thought about mom, about my life until now. Wasn’t Melinda right? Wasn’t I here to experience new things, to learn and to get enlightened? The smallest of smiles came over my face. Yes, I was, and I was here to sin, to do all the things my mom had warned me about, and told me I’d go to hell for.

When Melinda saw that small smile, she pulled me in close and kissed me.

The moment our lips made contact, all the apprehension and all my doubts evaporated. I was obsessed with this woman. When our lips parted, I gave her a nod and said I was ready to try, if only this once.

The moment I took Oneiria, as she’d called it, the world changed.

All the colors around me intensified, as if the world’s saturation had been turned up a few notches. The same was true for my feelings. For the first time, I could truly feel the world around me, could feel every part of my body, and, of course, I could feel Melinda.

Almost in a trance, I let her take my hand and lead me to the dance floor.

My eyes wandered around; the world seemed so, so different. Everything around me was moving faster, then slower again. Motions and people became blurs, washing into each other.

Then I focused on Melinda again. She was in front of me, her arms around me. I could feel the warmth of her emotions radiate from her and wash over me in heavy waves. It felt like I was a part of her and her a part of me.

At one point, we made out right there, on the dance floor. It was the most intense thing I’d ever felt in my entire life.

The longer I danced with Melinda, our hands grasping each other, our lips touching, the more the world changed. I saw things I’d never seen before. People were glowing brightly, their energy wafting through the air, intermingling and mixing into a kaleidoscope of living colors.

And then, for whatever reason, my eyes wandered upwards.

The club’s ceiling was gone. Twirling stars, and mad, sparkling galaxies unlike anything I’d ever seen before replaced it.

It was nothing short of magical, and as I moved my hand through the air, the stars above responded to my every motion.

Then my trance-like fascination was interrupted by a moment of clarity. I instantly cringed back from the surreal sight above me, averted my eyes, and tried to feel from the dance floor.

Yet I was held in place. When I stared at Melinda, she, too, had changed. By now, she was nothing but bright light and pure, intense feeling. I felt her holding me in place, surrounding me, engulfing me.

“This is what you were looking for all along, little Claire, this is it,” her sing-song voice reverberated inside my mind.

A second later, I drifted off.

When I awoke, I was in bed. For a moment, I shivered when I remembered what had happened.

Suddenly, I realized I was naked, grew confused when I realized I wasn’t in my dorm room.

Then Melinda entered the room, similarly naked.

“Melinda?” I brought out. “What happened? What did we…?”

Her answer was nothing but a smile, but one that told me more than enough.

Once I’d calmed down, I spoke again.

“What was that last night?”

“Oneiria,” Melinda answered, matter-of-factly. “It allows you to see. Not only what’s out there, but also what you desire, the magic you always dreamed of.”

After that night, it didn’t take long for me to get hooked. I’d told myself repeatedly to not give into it, that I’d just do it once more. Yet Oneiria had this strange fascination to it.

It differed from any other drug I’d heard about. You weren’t just getting high, it allowed you to visit certain different places. Every time the two of us indulged in Oneiria, I saw the same mad, sparkling galaxies, but also a world in which magic was real.

Eventually, I learned I wasn’t the only person Melinda had introduced Oneiria to. When I first heard this, I felt betrayed, and a pang of jealousy shot through my entire body. I almost left, never to talk to her again. Yet Melinda assured me I was special. I was the one, the only one she loved. All those others, they were friends, acquaintances, people of mutual interest. I was different.

What can I say? I believed her. And so, a few days later, I joined her during her next meeting with her little witches’ circle, who all indulged in Oneiria.

Every time I did it, however, the drug’s effect became stronger. It was barely noticeable, but noticeable nonetheless. The visions I saw intensified, and each time, I caught more glimpses of this other world. It was a place where not only magic was real, but witches, paganism, and magical creatures as well.

It was a place, I eventually learned, where even I had power, actual power, and could command the magic I so longed for. No longer was I mousy little Claire, but what I’d always wanted to be: a witch, an actual witch.

Yet as much as I loved the place, and as much as I loved Melinda, something about it felt wrong. That place, it felt too different and too far away, too detached.

At the same time, however, whenever I was there, I felt this pull, a pull from somewhere beyond that pulled me in just a tad bit closer.

Eventually, I realized, deep inside, I didn’t really want this. I didn’t want to get any closer. What I wanted was to feel magic, to command it, sure, but not in some otherworldly, drug-infused dreamscape. I’d wanted to do it here, to bring just a bit of magic into my boring secluded life. If I couldn’t even do that, then all of this was meaningless, might as well not have been real.

No, as much as I was pulled in, as much as I wanted more of it, I didn’t want to leave the real world behind, at least not just yet.

About a week ago, things took a turn for the worse.

Once again, our little circle met up, and once again, we readied ourselves for another round of Oneiria-infused scrying. That night, however, we, or rather they, went further than ever before.

While they all indulged in Oneiria, I sat there, holding the tiny Ziploc bag in hand, merely staring at it. I could feel the pull, watched as my fingers unconsciously opened the bag, my brain getting ready to indulge again. Then, I struggled against it. At first it was nothing but a half-hearted attempt, an afterthought, but soon it rose in power. As I did, I felt Melinda’s eyes on me, and somehow, this was enough to break free. The Ziploc bag dropped from my hand and I leaned back, thinking I’d finally broken free.

Yet as I sank back into my seat, I saw the ceiling above me opening up, vanishing, before the mad, sparkling galaxies replaced it. Then, we were all pulled in closer, towards the world of magic we’d visited so many times before.

But I hadn’t taken the drug. So how was this possible? How was I able to see what I’d thought of as nothing but Oneiria-infused hallucinations, tricks of the mind? Did it mean that all of it, all the visions, all the things I’d seen were… real?

Anxious, in confused terror, I turned toward Melinda, only to see she’d changed. What had once been a woman with cropped blond hair and bright green eyes was now a glimmering witch made of nothing but stars, a twisted space nebula.

She seemed to extend, to spread out, growing bigger, wider, an all-encompassing shroud of stars, fire and magic that washed over us.

But then, once she’d filled out the entire room, she opened up, and for the first time, I could see it clearly: the twisted, magical wonderland.

It was right there, right in front of me, so close, I could almost touch it. I saw energy wafting through the air like colorful clouds, saw magical creatures and fantastical beings.

Yet the place was all wrong. Its physics made no sense. It was upside down, but was not; it was circular but spread out and even. I saw mountains growing from the skies, mad galaxies that seemed far away but right there. Behind it all, I saw beings as massive as stars, unfathomable things reaching out, ever reaching out, further and further.

Instantly, I drew back, averted my eyes, and started screaming in sheer and utter terror. These screams were drowned out by those of the other members of the group. Theirs, however, were screams of joy. Soon, a cacophony of barely human jubilation echoed through the room, through the entire building, as they all threw themselves into the dreamscape ahead.

For a moment, I could see them running into one another, becoming one being before they were torn apart again.

Still screaming, I scrambled away and retreated to the farthest corner of the room. There I sat, shivering and shaking, my eyes closed and my hands pressed over my ears.

I stayed like this for what felt like an eternity.

Finally, I felt a hand touching my face. I jerked up, cringed away, but saw it was Melinda.

“It’s okay now, little Claire. It’s over.”

“W-what the hell was that?”

“I guess it wasn’t for you. Maybe not yet, maybe never.”

“What?”

“I showed it to you, little Claire, a place where you can be yourself, where you’ll find what you’ve been looking for.

“But that place… I don’t want it. Not like that.”

When I said this, Melinda’s eyes turned sad and a moment later, she got up.

“That’s it then,” she eventually said, her voice as sad as her eyes.

“Wait, what do you mean?”

“I was only here to help, little Claire, to show, not to force.”

“No, but I love you. I love us, and I want to-“

“Do you really? Or were you just looking for someone to enlighten you, to show you just how much more there’s out there?”

“No! I mean… I don’t know. I don’t freaking know, all right?!”

At that moment, Melinda came closer. Once more, she put her lips on mine. I savored that kiss more than any other we’d shared before.

When our lips parted, I could see the same mad, sparkling galaxies in her eyes and could feel her body surrounding me. It felt as if she was more magic than a real person.

My eyes grew wide, and I went forward to touch, to indulge in her, but Melinda stopped me.

“See? You didn’t want me, didn’t want Melinda, but those feelings, the magic of that other place.”

“But… it’s gone now, isn’t it?”

“You can find it again, the Oneiria, the magic, all of it.”

“What about you?”

“Me? What do you think I am?”

“You are…”

As much as I tried, I couldn’t answer her question.

“Nothing but a dream,” Melinda whispered into my ear.

A moment later, she was gone, leaving me alone in the empty room.

It’s been days since then. Even now, I can’t make sense of what happened. Neither can I make sense of who, or what, Melinda truly was.

Yet at night, I often dream of that place, a place where magic is real. It’s a place where I am truly a witch. Sometimes, out of the corner of my eye, I catch a glimpse of her, of a woman with cropped blond hair, and bright green eyes who’s boding me forward to join her.

Whenever I awake from those dreams, I’m filled with the utmost fear, but a fear that’s different from that of any other nightmares.

For as much as I oppose it, as much as I don’t want to go, I long for it with every fiber of my being.

I know that eventually, I will go back to those back alley scene clubs, those frequented by the weirder, more alternative parts of the population.

And one day, regardless if I want to or not, I know I will indulge in it again, indulge in Oneiria.

Marty the Lizard Boy

Marty was obsessed with lizards. No, not dinosaurs, not dragons, just those tiny, four-legged, slithering things.

I don’t know when or why it started. One day, out of nowhere, lizards were all he talked about.

Marty was an odd kid, one who didn’t seem to fit in, and who was always interested in the most random things. He was also big, tall, almost too tall for his age. At the same time, however, he was a bit slow, shy and reserved. You could’ve called him a gentle giant, if he wouldn’t have been a fourteen-year-old boy.

I thought this lizard thing would be over soon enough. Marty was always quick to get excited about something, but after only a couple of weeks, he’d have moved on.

This lizard thing was different. He didn’t just like them; he grew obsessed with them.

We’d have to do a presentation in class and could choose our own topic? Lizards. We’d each put together our own little website during IT class? Marty’s would be about lizards. Even on Halloween, he turned up in a life-sized lizard costume.

It was the worst during biology class. He’d constantly annoy our teacher, Mrs. Grantle, with questions about lizards and would likewise uh and ah whenever they were mentioned.

Growing up, Marty and I were pretty close. He lived down the street from me and we hung out a lot. I liked him well enough, but even when we were little, I could tell he was different.

That might have been the reason his parents got him anything he asked for. His family was very well-off and Marty’s room was filled to the brim with all sorts of toys. He also owned a giant TV and pretty much any video game console you could think of.

After the lizard things started, however, his room transformed into a bona fide lizard sanctuary. Gone were the posters of superheroes, now replaced by ones of lizards. His bookshelf, once filled with comic books, was now stacked with books on lizards. He even owned a giant terrarium populated by almost a dozen of them.

The most annoying part was that he talked about nothing else anymore. I’d mention a cool new movie I’d seen, and he’d tell me about some dumb lizard movie. If we talked about superheroes, he’d bring up some obscure lizard character I’d never heard about.

I told him countless times to knock it off with the dumb lizard stuff, but he never did. Eventually, I just stopped hanging out.

While I didn’t remember how this obsession came to be, I remember when the bullying started.

Until this point, Marty had been ignored by everyone. He just sat in the back of the class, quiet, and busying himself with whatever he was currently interested in. He was pretty much invisible.

The lizard thing, however, and his irritating behavior soon put him on everyone’s radar.

One day, he even brought one of his lizards to school, and when I saw it, I knew something was about to happen.

He’d put the lizard in a tiny box, which he hid during class, but always brought out during breaks. There, in the back, he’d play with it and show it off to those few classmates who hadn’t tired of his lizard stick yet.

One of them was Stevie. Everyone knew he couldn’t care less about lizards. As he stood there, next to Marty, I could hear the sarcasm in his voice as he asked questions and said how cool Marty’s lizard was. Stevie was making fun of him, but Marty was completely oblivious to it.

During a later break, when Marty went to the bathroom, Stevie put his plan into motion. He snatched the lizard from Marty’s bag and swiftly hid it in someone else’s, a girl named Cindy.

When Marty returned, he noticed his lizard was gone and began searching for it everywhere. No one said a word, of course, not even those who’d seen what Stevie had done. For a while, Marty darted across the room in a panic, trying desperately to find it. When the bell rang, however, our teacher entered the room and commanded Marty to return to his seat. As he sat there, his face was one of misery, and I could tell he was close to tears.

Only a few minutes later, someone screamed. It was Cindy, and right there on her arm was Marty’s lizard.

“Larry!” Marty called out.

Before he could do anything, Cindy brushed the lizard off her arm, and, in disgust, trampled it.

Marty lost it completely, rushed over and started laying into her for ‘killing his friend.’

It took the combined might of our teacher and three classmates to drag Marty of her. By then, Cindy was crying, had a bleeding nose, and a painfully swollen eye.

Marty got in a lot of trouble for that. He was sent to the principal, got suspended for an entire week, and his parents had to come over for a serious talk. By this point, many of the teachers had noticed Marty’s weird obsession, and not a few of them had grown concerned over it.

When Marty returned to school, everyone had heard about the incident, about Lizard Boy’s freak-out, as they referred to him.

I knew it was Stevie who’d spread the story and came up with the name, and from this day onward, he made it a sport to tease Marty.

What started out as name-calling and silly jokes soon turned into full on bullying.

People would dump dead lizards into Marty’s backpack. He’d get beaten up after school. At one point, he was even forced to come to school in his stupid lizard costume and crawl through the hallways on all fours.

It was nasty. Yet Marty never stopped talking about lizards. I just didn’t get it.

One day, on my way home, I walked up to him.

“Why don’t you just stop it with the lizard stuff already?” I asked.

Marty turned around, and for a few seconds, he just stared at me with wide eyes, as if I’d insulted him. Then he beamed at me.

“No way, Andy, lizards are just way too cool!” he answered.

“See, that’s why everyone’s making fun of you!”

“I don’t really mind.”

“You don’t mind being bullied or beaten up?”

For a second, I could see his smile waver. Then it returned, and whatever thought had come to his mind vanished again.

“Hey, Andy, you want to see something super cool?”

“What is it?”

I was about to ask him if this was about lizards again, but before I could, he leaned in close, bringing up his face in front of mine. His expression was serious, conspiratorial even.

“If I show you, you’ve got to promise me not to tell anyone!”

I sighed, but then nodded. To be honest, I felt bad for him.

“Yeah, sure, Marty,” I mumbled.

“All right, but we got to go somewhere first!”

With that, Marty turned around and hurried to the nearby grocery store. Not knowing what else to do, I set out after him.

Once I was inside, I saw Marty rush through the aisles, using his heavy frame to push other customers aside. Here and there, I heard curses, or someone calling after him to watch it, but Marty was indifferent to it all. When I’d caught up to him, I found him standing in front of the meat aisle. For a few moments, he studied the various packages before he picked on and headed for the counter.

“Why are you getting-?” I started, but didn’t get to finish the question.

Marty stared at me with wide eyes, and put a finger over his lips, as if whatever he was doing was a secret.

Once we’d left the store, he didn’t head home. Instead, he turned in a different direction.

“Come on, Andy,” he whispered to me.

“Where are we even going?”

Once more, he shushed me. As we walked on, he tried his best to hide his heavy frame, trying not to be seen. His eyes darted here and there, watching his surroundings until we’d made it to a building at the edge of town. When Marty saw no one was around, he dashed towards a path that led to the forest next to our town.

“Hey, Marty, just tell me where we’re going!”

“It’s somewhere super cool!”

“Yeah, but what is it? Why’d you get the meat? Is it for a cat or something?”

I reasoned he might have befriended a stray, or maybe a bunch of them, and had gotten the meat for them.

“Not, it’s for the lizards!” he finally answered in an almost giddy voice.

I stopped and stared at him. Of course, this was about freaking lizards.

“Are you serious?”

He began nodding vehemently, his face full of enthusiasm.

“Yeah! Don’t you want to see them? They are, like, super cool! I found this nest out in the forest, and they look awesome! Their colors change all the time, and they are different from any other lizards. It’s like a new species or something. Come on, Andy, I bet they are hungry already and there’s probably even more of them now! I wonder if there’s even bigger ones, you know? That would be so freaking cool!”

“I should’ve known this was about lizards again.”

“Well, yeah, but they aren’t just-“

“No, Marty, I don’t care! I don’t give a shit about your stupid lizards!”

With that, I turned around and stormed off. I couldn’t believe it, but to be honest, I shouldn’t have expected anything else.

After that day, I really had enough of Marty, and soon I joined into the various jokes about him.

“Yeah, he’s probably part lizard himself,” I said to one of my friends, Tommy, as we stood in front of our lockers a few days later.

“I bet his parents are reptilians! That’s why they got so much money,” Tommy added.

We both started laughing.

“You know what he told me the other day? He said he’d found this weird lizard nest in the forest and-“

“What’s that about a lizard nest?”

It was Stevie, with his friend Connor in tow. In an instant, they pushed Tommy aside and cornered me.

“Oh, eh, hey Stevie,” I mumbled. “Lizard Boy told me he found this nest out in the forest and went to feed them or something.”

Stevie’s face distorted into a grin.

“You hear that?” he asked, turning to Connor.

“Bet he isn’t just feeding them though,” Connor brought out, laughing. “He’s a lizard lover, after all.”

I sighed. As much as I was sick of Marty’s shit, I couldn’t stand the two of them.

“So, where is it?”

“No clue, somewhere in the forest, I guess.”

With that, I tried to push myself past them, but Stevie pulled me back instantly.

“Yeah, but he showed it to you, right?”

“No, he did not. I didn’t want to see his stupid lizards.”

“You sticking up for Lizard Boy?” Connor barked at me.

“What? No, I-“

“Yeah, are you a lizard, too, Andy?” Stevie laid into me.

“Fuck off,” I yelled at him, which promptly landed me in a headlock.

“You know, Andy,” Stevie started. “Ever since Lizard Boy’s been skipping out on us, we’ve gotten really bored. Maybe we’ll start hanging out with you instead. How about that?”

“Fine! I’ll show you where he entered the stupid forest, but I swear, I’ve got no idea where the stupid nest is! I think he always goes there right after school, so if you wait for him-“

“Oh no, Andy, you’re coming, too. In case you’re lying to us.”

“Yeah, to make sure you aren’t a lizard,” Connor added, laughing.

And so, once classes had ended, I found the two of them already waiting for me.

“There he is! Are you excited about our little lizard hunt, Andy?”

Once more, I sighed, but gave him a nod, not wanting to end up in another headlock.

Marty was already gone, and had snuck out of school via the back entrance, like he so often did these days. He was probably on his way to the store already.

Instead of leading Stevie and Connor there, however, I showed them the path from which Marty had entered the forest. For long minutes, we lay in wait, hidden between the bushes, but Marty was nowhere to be seen. I could tell Stevie was growing restless, angry even.

“Where the hell is he? If you’re lying to us, I’m going to beat the shit out of you, Andy!”

“I don’t know. Maybe he’s still at the store. Or maybe he’s not coming today. How the hell’d I know?”

Right away, Connor slapped me across the back of the head. I cursed in pain and glared at him.

“What’s that? You want to pick a fight?”

“Shut up, idiots! There he is!” Stevie suddenly whispered.

He was right.

Just like the day before, Marty hurried down the street, his eyes darting here and there, trying his best to stay hidden behind buildings. Then he’d made it to the dirt path and went on his way into the forest. As he walked past us, I saw how giddy with excitement he was.

For a while longer, we sat there. Then we set out after him, carefully not to be seen.

We walked for what must’ve been almost half an hour before he stopped in front of a small rock formation. For long seconds, he just stood there, but then he found what he’d been looking for: a small gap between the rocks. We watched as he approached it, and then, grunting, pushed himself through.

When we’d reached the gap as well, we saw how he approached some sort of crevice. He put down his backpack and then set down as well. He rummaged through his backpack before he pulled out a pack of meat. Then he opened it and threw piece after piece down the crevice.

“You’ve gotten really hungry, haven’t you?” Marty asked, giggling.

Right away, Stevie pushed me forward, motioning for the gap. Once I was through, he and Connor followed.

“Well, what do we have here?” Stevie brought out in a sing-song voice with a big grin on his face. “If it isn’t little Lizard Boy!”

Marty froze. Then, slowly, he turned around, his eyes wide with fear.

He opened his mouth to say something, but closed it again when he saw me standing behind Stevie and Connor. I could see the shock on his face at my betrayal.

I instantly looked away and shuffled around as Stevie and Connor approached him.

“We’ve missed you, Lizard Boy. Why didn’t you tell us about this place? I mean, we’re friends, aren’t we?”

“What do you want, Stevie?” Marty asked in a meek voice.

“What was that? Why don’t you speak up Lizard Boy?” Stevie yelled at him.

“Yeah, speak up, you stupid lizard!” Connor added.

“Stop screaming, you’re scaring them!” Marty suddenly brought out, in a voice much louder than anyone would’ve expected.

This outburst landed him a punch from Stevie, and he went down.

“Now let’s have a look at those stupid lizards,” Stevie said, pushing himself past Marty.

When he reached the crevice, however, an expression of disgust came over his face.

“The hell are those?” he spat.

“Leave them alone!” Marty called out, trying to get up.

By now, however, Connor had reached him and pushed him down again, restraining him.

Stevie still hadn’t moved, and driven by curiosity, I stepped up to the crevice as well.

What I saw down there were lizards, all right, but they were much bigger than those I’d seen in Marty’s terrarium.

They were strange whitish things, but I could see their scales shimmer in the light, their color slightly shifting as if they were cheap imitations of chameleons. Their heads, too, looked different. It was their eyes, I realized after a brief moment. They were in the wrong place, not at the side, but at the front of their heads. The strangest thing about them, however, was the way they moved. They weren’t so much slithering over the ground, but crawling.

I watched in fascination as one of them reached a chunk of meat. Instead of biting into it, it tore at it with one of its clawed feet. Feet that almost resembled miniature hands.

I shivered as I stared at the creatures down there. What the hell had Marty found out here?

“Those things are disgusting,” Stevie finally said.

I didn’t like him. Hell, I hated him for dragging me out here, but he had a point.

“They not disgusting! They are awesome!” Marty blurted out.

Stevie turned around, now grinning again.

“Oh, you think so, Lizard Boy? Then why don’t you go down there and play with them?”

“I can’t! They’ll get scared and run away and never come back!”

“Is that so?” Stevie asked, getting a hold of Marty’s backpack.

“Well, that’s too bad. I guess you can’t get this back then.”

With that, he threw Marty’s backpack down into the crevice. The lizards scattered and fled back to a cave at the end of the crevice, watching the backpack wearily. Then they slowly approached it.

“No, why’d you do that?” Marty called out. “If they smell humans, they might hide and never come out again!”

“What are you going to do about it, Lizard Boy?”

In an onset of anger, Marty freed himself from Connor, pushed him aside, and rushed Stevie. Before Stevie could react, Marty threw himself at him, and with surprising strength, pushed him away from the crevice and the lizards below. Stevie stumbled back a few steps before he tripped and crashed to the floor. I could hear him curse up in pain.

“You shouldn’t have done that, Lizard Boy,” he spat as he pushed himself back up.

Stevie was furious now, and I could see the mad grin on his face. In an instant, he was back in front of Marty and began laying down on him. Marty raised his arms to protect himself from Stevie’s onslaught, but I saw him backing away. He took one step, then another, and finally tripped over a rock.

Marty tumbled backward, lost his footing, and a moment later, he was gone.

Everything was quiet. The only audible sound was that of the lizards below us.

Then I heard a thump as Marty landed right between them. The strangest of sounds reached my ears. It sounded almost like a dull ‘uff,’ but also entirely different.

With weak, shaking legs, all three of us stepped forward. Marty lay on the ground, down in the crevice, not moving.

Suddenly, his eyes fluttered open, and he stared up at us with a pleading expression, which was quickly replaced by rage. He moved, was about to push himself up, but then he fell down again. His eyes fall shut, his face went limp, and I watched as a small trickle of blood ran from his mouth.

“Fuck!” Stevie brought out.

Then he and Connor turned around, dashed towards the gap, and were gone a second later.

“M-Marty?” I called out.

No answer. His eyes didn’t flutter open. He didn’t move. All I saw were those strange lizards which began circling him.

As I stared at him down there, panic washed over me. Oh god, he was dead. Marty was dead. He’d fallen and now…

Not knowing what else to do, I ran. I was scared, confused, but most of all, I felt guilty.

I thought about telling someone, to call for help. Yet I was the one who’d brought Stevie there. I was the one responsible. It was my fault. It was all my fault!

The moment I’d made it home, I locked myself in my room. I was out of it, shaking, couldn’t sit still. I tried to tell myself Marty was all right. It wasn’t that big a fall. Sure, he’d probably gotten hurt, but it wasn’t like he’d die from something like that!

When my parents called me down for dinner, I just sat there, at the table, not moving. I ate nothing, I couldn’t. After only a few minutes, I got up and went back to my room, ignoring my parents as they called after me.

I didn’t sleep that night. I just lay in bed as Marty’s fall replayed in front of my eyes. Once more, I saw him staring up at us, saw his pleading expression, his anger, and then the blood trickling from his mouth.

Still, I told myself, he was probably all right, he had to be.

All those thoughts were crushed when Marty’s seat remained empty the next day.

After school, I found myself cornered by Stevie and Connor. They, too, were out of it. But then Stevie threatened me.

“You keep your mouth shut Andy, or I swear…”

I saw him reach into his pocket, saw the switchblade he was hiding there.

“I promise, Stevie, I won’t say anything!”

“Good, and anyway, we’d just tell everyone it was you who pushed him!”

With that, the two of them left me behind, more scared than ever.

The day after, Marty didn’t show up either. By the third day, our teacher told us Marty had gone missing. She appealed to us to come forward if we knew where he might have gone or what might have happened to him.

When I heard this, I looked up, but noticed Stevie staring me down. And so, I didn’t say a thing, never did.

A few days later, Stevie approached me again and pushed me against my locker. He was angry, but I also noticed how tired and restless he looked.

“Was it you!?”

“No, I swear, I didn’t say a thing! Why’d you think-“

“What? No, not that! I’m talking about last night! You were at my window, weren’t you? Making these weird sounds, scratching over the class and acting like some freaking lizard!”

Before I could say anything, he pushed me against the locker once more, this time harder.

“Admit it, Andy! Tell me it was you, for fuck’s sake!”

“No! Why’d I…? What the hell are you even talking about?”

For a few more seconds, he seemed to probe me, but then let me go and stormed off. As he did, I could hear him curse under his breath.

I just stared after him. What the hell was he talking about? Then I thought about Marty, about his hateful expression.

What if he’d been okay after all, but hadn’t gone home? What if he’d stayed there in the forest with these weird lizards and was now coming after Stevie? No, coming after all three of us.

I told myself I was being stupid. If he’d been okay, he’d just gone home. It was freaking Marty we were talking about!

But then, about a week after Marty’s fall, Stevie didn’t show up to school.

It was Connor who told me what had happened. The night before, Stevie had sent him a message, telling him that someone had been stalking his house for the past few days. Eventually, when he saw a figure standing at his window, he’d had enough. He wrote he was going to finish Lizard Boy for good. It was the last thing anyone ever heard from him.

“What if it really is freaking Lizard Boy?” Connor asked. “What if he’s really come back and-?”

“We’re talking about Marty here!” I countered.

“Yeah, but then, who else could it be? Why’d they come after Stevie? No one else knows what we did!”

I just stared at him, not sure what to say.

“Fucking hell,” Connor spat at me, and hurried away.

Three days later, Connor was gone, too. His story, however, was different. He hadn’t just vanished. Apparently, someone had broken into his room in the middle of the night. When his parents were awoken by the noise, they stormed into his room. They found the window destroyed, the room in a state of utter chaos. Yet no hint of Connor or the intruder remained.

At this point, the disappearances caused an uproar in town. Three kids had gone missing, had presumably been kidnapped.

School was cancelled, a state of emergency was declared, and curfews were enacted.

They question all of us. Yet somehow, I didn’t come clean. I couldn’t I was too scared to say anything, to admit what we’d done. I felt guilty. If I’d said something earlier, but now…

Before long, a search was started. First by the police, but soon, many of the townspeople joined in. They found nothing.

I grew detached during these days, reclusive and retreated to my room. I was riddled with guilt, but more so, I was afraid. What if it really was Marty? What if he’d really come for them, and was now coming for me as well?

By this point, my fear had grown irrational and had transformed him into some sort of lizard hybrid. In my mind, he was a slithering, scaly monstrosity, just waiting for me to be alone so he could come and drag me away.

Before long, more people went missing. Two more kids were snatched from their homes, as they referred to it. Two kids, who, like me, had taken part in tormenting Marty. Then it was our biology teacher, Mrs. Grantle.

Eventually, even the search parties weren’t safe from Marty’s wrath. One day, eleven men set out in another search of the forest. Amongst them the fathers of Stevie and Connor. Come evening, only seven of them returned. The rest should stay missing.

Tonight, as so many times before, I lay in bed, not able to sleep. It was long past midnight when I heard something from outside. I told myself it was just the wind, repeated it over and over again. Yet the lie didn’t work. The sounds were too loud, almost like footsteps echoing from below my second-story window.

Oh god, I thought, it was Marty. He’d finally come for me!

At first, I wanted to hide, but then I went up to the window. Maybe, just maybe, I could reconcile with him, apologize and tell him to stop this crazy revenge of his.

“Marty, I’m sorry, I didn’t-“ I called out, half-crying.

Then my voice trailed off. In the dim light of the room, I could see a figure below my window. It stared up at me with cold, reptilian eyes.

Yet whoever or whatever this figure was, it was much too big for even Marty, much too scaly. Its skin was strangely white, but then, it seemed to change, to adapt to the dim light from my window.

I saw clawed, scaly hands, and a long reptilian head. The creature opened its mouth, releasing a screech before it began scaling the wall.

I screamed and scrambled back from the window. At that moment, lights went on all over the house. I heard the creature hiss, heard it let go of the wall, and watched as it slithered away into the darkness of the night.

I just sat there, on the floor, staring out the window in sheer and utter horror. When parents came into the room, asking me what was wrong, what had happened, I wasn’t able to say anything.

Marty’s words as he spoke to the strange lizards in the forest reverberated inside my mind.

“You’ve gotten so hungry, haven’t you?”

And then, another thing he’d said came to my mind.

“I wonder if there’s even bigger ones, you know? That would be so freaking cool!”

Oh god, I realized. I had it all wrong. It wasn’t Marty, it never had been.

I don’t know what Marty had discovered out there. I don’t know what those things are, but I know they aren’t just lizards.

After Marty fell, after he’d died, they’d gotten their first taste and they must’ve realized there’s more of us.

And now, they are coming for us, for all of us.

The Cats in My Town Are Multiplying

I don’t remember when it started. I first noticed it a few weeks ago when I went to the grocery store. There were so many cats around.

Seeing cats isn’t uncommon in a rural town such as mine. Many people owned cats, and there are quite a few strays around.

It’s just that you never really noticed them unless you looked. Most cats are rather shy with strangers. You’d occasionally see a stray walking down the street or sleeping on someone’s porch, but that was about it.

That day, during my five-minute walk to the grocery story, I saw at least ten of them. They were sitting on the sidewalks, playing with each other, and even approaching people.

Don’t get me wrong, I love cats. I just wondered where they’d all come from. They were also extremely friendly. They’d walk up to you, meowing and rubbing against your leg, desperate to be petted. I almost tripped multiple when one of them couldn’t stop sneaking around my legs. I petted the little guy for a bit, and thinking he was satisfied, continued on.

When I got home, Simba, my four-year-old tabby, noticed it right away. The moment he smelled the stray on me, he hissed at me before he booked it and hid under the bed for the rest of the day.

Simba’s special. He’s extremely skittish, easily scared, doesn’t like people, and, as I learned that day, doesn’t seem to like other cats either. I love the little guy to death, but our relationship’s more that of roommates sharing the same apartment.

What he loved the most was to sit outside on the balcony, watching birds, people, and even the occasional stray. Yet, in case he’d get a bit too excited, I installed a cat safety net. There was no telling what would happen if he’d ever skip out on me.

He, too, had noticed the influx of strays in the area, and I’d often find him watching them with watchful eyes. Every once in a while, he’d even hiss at those who dared to come closer.

I guess they made him a little restless. He became even more skittish during these weeks, and he’d often hide under the bed or other secret places around the apartment.

This morning, to my surprise, I found him outside on the balcony. I was a little confused because I didn’t remember letting him outside.

The moment he saw me, he began meowing, desperate to be let back inside. Shit, I remembered. I went for a smoke before I headed to bed. He probably snuck outside, and I accidentally locked him out all night.

“Hey, I’m sorry, little dude. I didn’t know you were outside.”

He answered my apology with a hearty meow and began rubbing against my leg, purring loudly.

“What happened to you? Are you that happy to be back inside?” I said, laughing, and to my surprise, he let me pet him.

After I’d fed him and prepared myself some coffee, he joined me at the computer. For a few minutes, he sat by my side, watching me before he jumped on my lap, making no indications of ever move again.

I was more than surprised. As I said, Simba doesn’t like people, and while he tolerated me, he’d never jumped on my lap before.

“Guess you like me after all, do you?”

While I was reading the news and drinking my coffee, I couldn’t help but wonder where this change came from.

“Is it because of all those strays outside? Are you scared of them, little dude? Don’t worry, they won’t be able to get in.”

For the next couple of hours, he happily slept on my lap while I worked.

As I absent-mindedly petted him, I suddenly noticed something. It was a sort of bump on his back. When my fingers went over it a second time, I could’ve sworn I felt something squirm below his skin. In an instant, I pulled my hand back.

By now, he’d woken up and was staring at me.

“Hey, what have you got there? Are you hurt?”

I checked his back right away, going over it again and again, but found no hint of the bump. Eventually, I gave up, and reasoned it might have been some sort of muscle spasm during sleep.

Before long, morning turned to afternoon, and eventually early evening.

When I saw it was already seven, I cursed. The damned grocery store would close in about an hour, and I still needed to get some food.

In a careful, but swift motion, I put down a protesting Simba and put on my shoes and jacket. Then I opened the balcony door, asking if he wanted to go outside and keep watch over the neighborhood like he usually did. Yet he just sat there, not moving, staring at me.

“Hey, what’s up? Don’t you want to go outside? Are you still scared of those strays?”

For another few seconds, he continued staring at me before he slowly made his way toward the balcony door, vanishing outside. I closed it behind him, so the apartment wouldn’t cool down, and went on my merry way.

The moment I opened the apartment building’s door, one of the many strays greeted me. It was an orange tabby who now called the area around our apartment complex his home.

I gently shoed the cat away so I could step outside and noticed three others watching me from the bushes nearby.

“Sorry, I can’t play with you guys. I’ve got to go to the store.”

With that, I set out down the street. I noticed just how many cats there were by now. It wasn’t just a few, it had to be dozens. They were everywhere: out in the streets, on the sidewalks and in front of people’s homes.

My eyes wandered around before they came to rest on a cat further down the road. It was an orange tabby. When the cat heard my approaching footsteps and turned to face me, I looked up.

I saw the crooked tail and the scratch mark on his little nose. It was the same cat who’d greeted me at the door. How’d he gotten here so quickly?

Well, cats are fast, I thought, and I’m not exactly a fast walker myself.

“You’re a quick one, aren’t you?” I said, as it began rubbing against my leg.

“Yeah, I know you want to play, but I can’t, sorry.”

For a moment, the cat stopped and began meowing in protest, almost as it had understood my words.

Then it just sat down in front of me, staring at me. For a second, I couldn’t help but be weirded out.

I stepped past him and continued on. Yet I couldn’t help but feel watched and when I turned around, he was still there, unmoving except for his eyes, which trailed after me.

Freaking cats. Why’d they have to be so weird?

I soon arrived at the store. In the evening, it was always packed. It seemed I wasn’t the only one who waited till the last minute to get his shopping done.

Today, however, the atmosphere felt different. At first, I couldn’t say what it was, but then I realized it. Some of the other customers were strangely friendly. They were beaming as they wandered through the aisles, wishing other shoppers a good evening, or even striking up a conversation. Now, there’s nothing wrong with that. It’s just a bit weird, especially at closing time.

Eventually, I shrugged it off, paid for my food, and left.

Outside, I could already see an assortment of strays and a bunch of kids playing with them.

Once more, I couldn’t help but wonder where all those cats had come from. In my head, I tried to think of a plausible scenario, but nothing made sense.

I counted them. At least a dozen were hanging around the store, but there were so many more out in the streets. It seemed there was even more now than when I’d entered the store a mere ten minutes ago.

For a moment, I watched the group of kids, and saw that they were playing with an orange tabby. It had the same crooked tail and the same scratch mark on his nose. Guess it had finally found someone to play with.

As I walked from the store, however, I saw it again, this time crossing the street ahead of me.

My steps slowed down. How the hell was that cat moving so quickly?

I turned around to look over my shoulder. The kids were still there, still playing with a cat, with an orange tabby.

A shiver went down my spine. Then I told myself my eyes had to be playing tricks on me. Hell, maybe it’s just two cats who look really similar. With so many around, it was possible.

And yet, I felt my steps speeding up as almost unconsciously hurried home. When I reached the building, my eyes grew wide.

“How in the hell had he gotten out?” I cursed to myself.

There he was, Simba, outside, on the ground, scanning the area.

“Dammit, the freaking net must’ve a hole, or one of those damned strays tore it apart.”

For a moment, I opened my mouth to call out to him, but then closed it again. Simba was way too skittish and way too easily scared. There was no telling what he’d do if I’d just call out to him.

Instead, I carefully approached him, hoping to scoop him up and bring him back home.

Yet he started to move and began making his way alongside the building. I watched as he checked out the neighboring balconies one by one, and wondered if he’d jump onto one of them, but no.

Eventually, he snuck around the building’s corner and down an old staircase. It led towards the basement where the maintenance area and boiler room were located.

I quickly followed him, hoping to catch him at the bottom of the stairs

When I reached them, however, there was no hint of Simba. Instead, I found the door slightly ajar.

“Oh for fuck’s sake, you little dummy,” I cursed.

This was a worst-case scenario. I’d heard way too many horror stories about cats getting trapped in basements or garages and starving to death.

I pushed open the door, expecting to find a maintenance worker fixing some sort of problem, but was greeted with nothing but gaping darkness.

But then why was the damned door even open?

From afar, I could hear something dripping onto the floor, most likely a leaking pipe. Maybe one of my neighbors had noticed a problem, checked out the basement and hadn’t closed the door. Good going, idiot!

I put down my backpack and pushed it against the door so I wouldn’t get trapped myself. When I hit the light switch, nothing happened. Cursing, I activated my phone’s flashlight and set out to find my cat.

The moment I stepped inside, I noticed how moist the air was. Even the walls were wet with condensation and further ahead I could see puddles on the floor. Yep, a leak, I thought to myself.

“Hey, Simba, little dude, where are you?” I whispered in a quiet, friendly voice.

I tip-toed on, scanning the ground, careful not to scare him.

“Come on, let’s get out of here.”

Nothing. Not a hint of the cat. I cursed inwardly. Where the hell are you? Don’t tell me he crawled behind some pips or under the boilers. God, you stupid cat!

Darting my phone around, I illuminated an old shelf, then an assortment of pipes, but I still couldn’t find him.

When the beam hit one puddle, I saw that the water was strangely reddish. For a moment, I stared at it. It had to be rust, considering the age of the building.

Once again, I called out for the cat, but all I heard was the same quiet sound. By now, however, my ears had adjusted. It sounded almost like something was moving or squishing around in the water on the floor.

It was coming from the boiler ahead of me, or rather, from something that was behind it. I saw that the strange reddish water almost flooded the back of the room. When I stepped into it, however, I noticed it was too thick, almost syrupy. In disgust, I pulled my foot back.

Then I froze. Was this… blood? Shit! The open door, the broken light switch. Don’t tell me some maintenance worker had gone down here and had hurt himself, hurt himself badly, given the amount of blood. What if he was bleeding out right over there?

In an instant, I rushed forward, stepped past the boiler, and illuminated the area in front of me.

Everything was covered in blood, and right in the center was Simba, sitting in front of something.

At first I really thought it was a body, a torn apart human body, but it was too big for that.

It was nothing but flesh, a giant heap or blob of flesh stuck to the wall. I opened my mouth to tell Simba to get the hell away from whatever this was, but then…

The thing began moving, heaving, almost as if it was breathing. All the while, it pumped out more of the blood that covered the floor.

My eyes grew wide, not understanding what I was seeing.

When I looked at Simba again, I saw how strange he looked. His body was all wrong, deformed, almost as if he’d melted. It began convulsing, shaking, and I saw something squirm inside of him. Then a disgusting fleshy tentacle burst from his back and slithered toward the disgusting blob.

In a trance, I watched as it probed the blob, and then, finding an orifice, contacted it.

The blob in front of him moved again, shook, but this time I saw where the movement was coming from. It wasn’t the blob itself, it was something inside of it. I saw bodies, tiny bodies. I could make out skinless heads, legs and tails. It was cats, skinless, half-formed cats.

Simba’s body was almost a puddle by now. At that moment, two of the things inside the blob began clawing their way outward.

“What the fuck?” escaped my mouth.

Right away, the two skinless creatures in front of me started hissing and meowing at me.

Finally, the trance was broken. I screamed in terror, cringed back, but after only a few steps, I stumbled over my feet and crashed to the floor.

The phone clattered away, its flashlight illuminating the ceiling above me.

There was another one of these things, another fleshy blob stuck to the ceiling. This one, however, was much, much bigger. It, too, was moving, similarly heaving and stretching. And inside of it, there were other things, things that twitch, trying to make their way outside. But they were so much bigger than cats.

For a second, I couldn’t move, could only stare at the surreal sight above me in stunned horror.

Then, the blob burst open and another of the tentacles slithered outward. No, not just outward, toward me.

In an instant, I was back on my feet, then at the door and finally outside.

I was back inside my apartment mere moments later.

I was shaking and out of it. What the fuck had I just seen? This couldn’t be real, this couldn’t-

I saw something moving out of the corner of my eye. Something was staring at me, and when I darted around, I saw glowing eyes from inside my wardrobe.

With a scream, and ready to beat whatever was in there, I tore it open.

I didn’t understand what I was seeing. Right there, huddled under a stack of clothing, was Simba.

“How the hell are you here? You were just outside, so…”

My voice trailed off when the smell hit me. He’d soiled himself.

Yet he made no intention of moving. Instead, he just stared at me with wide, anxious eyes, trying to push himself deeper under the clothes. Slowly, ever so slowly, afraid to see his body contort and change, I reached out my hand. At first, he hissed at me, but then he began smelling my fingers as usual.

I didn’t understand. If he was here, then the one I’d followed must’ve been a… fake?

I thought about all those strays, about the orange tabby, and what I’d just seen inside those disgusting blob-like things. Oh dear god, don’t tell me all those strays…

With weak legs, I stumbled towards my balcony to check just how many of the things were out there.

The moment I pulled aside the curtain, however, I found myself face to face with Simba.

I jerked around, but saw he was still inside the wardrobe, still hidden under my clothes, his eyes trained on the imposter outside.

Another one, it was another fake Simba.

“You… Get the fuck away!” I screamed at the thing through the balcony door.

Yet it didn’t leave. Instead, it approached the door, pushing itself against it, letting out a meow as if to beg me to let him come inside.

At that moment, I realized it. This thing had been with me all day. It had been the one sitting on my lap while Simba was hiding inside the wardrobe. The trick had worked. Its fucking trick had worked!

Suddenly, I grew angry, and in an instant, I tore open the balcony door to stomp whatever this thing was.

When my foot came down hard on its body, it burst open and I saw an assortment of disgusting tentacles slithered out from it. Right away, they reached out for my shoe, trying to get a hold of it.

Screaming, I stomped on the thing again and again. Finally, when I thought it was dead, when it was nothing but a disgusting puddle of reddish goo, I slumped to the ground.

Yet, it wasn’t over. I cringed back when the thing started moving again, pulled itself together and slithered towards the corner of the balcony. There it melted away through a small gap between the balcony railing and the wall. It washed outside before it reformed itself into a cat and dashed away.

For a long moment, I just sat there, utterly confused and half-laughing.

Then my eyes wandered over the area in front of the building. I could see them, the cats. They were everywhere, all staring at me. No, watching me.

I was back inside a moment later.

Something was going on, something bad. I had to tell people, had to get help.

The police, I decided. I reached into my pocket to pull out my phone, but found it empty. I cursed. When I’d fallen down in that damned basement, I’d lost it! It was still down there! Fuck!

The station then. I’d go to the station and tell them what I’d seen. They’d know what to do, or they’d call someone who did.

The moment I left my apartment, however, my neighbor’s door opened.

He was a grumpy old man, the type who’d scoff and yell at everyone. A textbook asshole, so to speak.

When I saw him now, however, he was beaming.

“Well hello there, neighbor. How are you doing this evening?”

I just stared at him.

“I… the police because there’s…”

My voice trailed off when he reached out and put his hand on my shoulder.

“Now, now, young man, just tell me what’s going on. I’m sure there’s no need to bother the police.”

“No, I mean, yes, there is! There are things below the…”

Once more, I couldn’t continue. I felt it again. The same strange feeling I’d felt when I’d petted the imposter cat’s back. Something was moving, or better, squirming, below the skin of his hand.

In an instant, I shook it off and cringed back.

“Get the fuck away from me!” I screamed at him.

His friendly expression, however, didn’t waver.

“My, if it isn’t Mr. Schneider,” a voice reached us.

It was another one of my neighbors, an older lady from upstairs. Her face, too, was extremely friendly, and her mouth was twisted into a disgustingly sweet smile.

She slowly came closer, positioning herself in the center of the hallway that led to the entrance door.

“Not going to let me leave, are you?” I spat at them.

I was about to chance it, to just dart past her, but then I heard more footsteps, and saw more people coming down the stairs. They, too, were beaming.

Right at that moment, my neighbor reached out for me again, trying to get a hold of me.

In an instant, I darted back into my apartment and locked the door.

One glance through the spyglass told me they were all still outside, just standing in front of my door.

“Are you sure you’re all right? Do you need help?” one of them spoke up.

I retreated back to the living room. This couldn’t be real. It was just the cats, wasn’t it?

That thing on the ceiling, though. It had been so much bigger, and so had the things inside of it.

I remembered all those smiling, overly friendly people at the grocery store. Oh dear god…

How long has this been going on? How many people have been replaced by now?

I can still hear them outside. They are still calling for me in their friendly, jolly voices, but there’s more of them now.

But I won’t give up and just wait till they come to get me. No, I’m going to take my chances. If I can’t leave via the front door, I’ll try the balcony. People have to know what’s going on here. People have to be warned.

There’s one thing, however, one thing I know. These things aren’t like animals. They aren’t merely driven by instinct.

There’s a method to this madness, a plan. The cats were only the first step, a way to get close to us and to get us to let our guard down.

No, these things are smart, and this is an invasion.

A TikTok Livestream Made Me Question Reality

Yes, I know, who in their right mind uses TikTok?

I was always starkly opposed to Social Media, especially TikTok. That cesspit of stupidity and regurgitated jokes should’ve never become a thing, and not one as huge as it is today.

I wish I’d never downloaded the damn thing. I really wish. Or maybe… maybe I do, after all? Well, never mind.

One night I was bored. After my computer broke, all I had was my phone. I was never a book guy, hell I didn’t own any and mobile games could only entertain me so much.

So, one day, I gave in and downloaded TikTok as my play store recommended.

At first, I was annoyed, more than annoyed. All I found were short clips of people acting like idiots.

After a while, though, I found the occasional interesting piece of content. Little live hacks, for example. Videos on how to survive in the wild, do-it-yourself guides or how to prepare a hot meal without using a stove. I was always intrigued by these things.

Needless to say, I got hooked.

For the past weeks, however, I got interested in a different type of content, urban exploring that is.

The real deal, I mean. Not the bullshit in which a creator’s friend covered in a bedsheet pretends to be a ghost in a dark hallway.

No, I liked to watch people explore old mineshafts, abandoned buildings or ghost towns.

While it was fun for a while, I didn’t like the fact that I’d never be able to visit any of the places I saw.

After getting acquainted with the shitshow that was TikTok’s search, I began browsing hashtag after hashtag. Eventually, I’d found a few local content creators who explored abandoned places in my area.

Now my city isn’t huge, but it’s not small either, so there was quite a bit of content.

Occasionally, I’d even watch a livestream.

There was something exhilarating about urban exploring. Before long, I put together my own list of places I wanted to see. If I ever left the house, that is, and if I ever was man enough to do so.

Tonight, I was notified about another livestream.

It was by two guys I’d recently discovered. Most of their content was typical for TikTok, stuff I didn’t care about. Sometimes, however, they checked out abandoned palces.

I joined the livestream and heard they were on their way to one of the ‘notorious abandoned areas’ of my city.

“Yeah, bro, this place used to be like hot shit back in the day! Like everyone wanted to live out here!”

“No way, dude. You’re fucking with me! That tower block over there’s going to collapse any minute now!”

“I swear, man, but it was like decades ago. I heard they even wanted to renovate the place at one point, but never did.

“Yeah? Why didn’t they?”

“No clue, place’s a money sink, I guess, or they realized it’s all old shit.”

“Yeah, like the rest of this city!”

Both of them began guffawing, and I couldn’t help but frown. They seemed to talk in the typical, annoying, over-the-top way all influencers did these days. I hated it.

Before long, however, they’d reached a giant, old apartment complex.

For a while, they continued on down a small, deserted street. Then they followed an alley that led them right into the center of the complex. The entire place was ruined. What might have once been a nice little park was now completely overgrown. Rubble was everywhere and here and there I saw stacks of old, half-rotten construction materials.

“Hey man, do you hear that? It sounds like crying or something!” one of them suddenly said.

His friend’s face appeared in front of the camera, an anxious look washed over it. Then he began laughing.

“Fuck, bro, you almost got me!”

By now, both of them were laughing again, like the idiots they were. I wasn’t. God, these guys were annoying.

With a sigh, I put the phone down, ignored their annoying voices, and couldn’t help but stare at the empty wall in front of me. What the hell was I even doing? Why the fuck was I watching some teenagers’ stupid TikTok livestream in the middle of the night?

While I questioned my life choices, a flashlight beam reached me from outside.

In an instant, I got up and went towards my balcony door.

Having a ground-floor apartment always makes me uneasy. The area I live in isn’t a bad one, but it’s not exactly a good one either. You never knew what could happen. One of my biggest fears was to find someone trying to climb onto my balcony and to break into my place.

I took a deep breath. It was probably just someone’s phone. Then I pushed aside the curtain, trying my best to stay hidden.

Right outside, in front of my building, I saw two figures. Each one was holding a flashlight in their hands, blasting their beams over apartments and windows alike. What the hell were they doing? Didn’t they know people were trying to sleep?

Once more, one of them sent their beam straight into my apartment, illuminating my living room.

Those assholes. I bet they were trying to fuck with people!

From outside, I could hear their laughter and their high-pitched teenage voices. Got nothing better to do, eh?

Growing angry, I pushed open the balcony door to tell them to fuck off.

Right when I stepped outside, one of them was actually trying to climb onto my balcony. For a moment, the beam of his flashlight hit me right in the face.

“What the fuck?!” I screamed while I instinctively shielded my eyes from the blinding light.

Screaming in surprise, the guy tumbled backwards and crashed back down over the balcony railing.

In an instant, I was back inside, throwing the balcony door shut. That was it. Now I was pissed. Fucking around with flashlights was one thing, but trying to break into my place was a whole different story.

I put on my shoes, threw on my jacket, and stormed outside. Before I did, I got a hold of a broom.

Just in case, I told myself.

When I pushed open the apartment building’s door, I saw they were still right there. One of them was on the ground, probably hurt from tumbling down, while his friend was trying to help him up.

The moment they saw me, they both froze.

“The hell do you think you’re doing?” I screamed at them.

In my anger, I began waving around the broom, hoping to show them I was serious.

“N-no, we did nothing, I swear! We didn’t know someone lived here, so… We’re sorry, we’re sorry!” one of them called out to me.

By now, the one on the ground had gotten back to his feet.

“Get the hell out of here,” I spat at them, taking a single, well-measured step forward.

By now, both of them were shaking. They were pleading with me, crying and repeating their ‘we’re sorry’ as they backed away.

As I stood there, watching them, this entire situation felt weird. Why the hell were they suddenly so scared? Just moments ago, they’d tried to climb onto someone’s balcony and now…

My anger evaporated, and I almost felt sorry for them. Almost. Still, I lowered the broom and tried to look as non-threatening as possible.

“Yo, I won’t do anything to you guys, all right? Just leave.”

They were still scared, but nodded vehemently, promising they’d never ever be back again. Then they both turned around and booked it.

As I looked after them, I still didn’t know why they’d been so scared. I mean, sure, I’m a big dude, but more fat than muscle. Don’t tell me it’s because of the freaking broom?

On the way back inside, I couldn’t help but laugh about the entire situation. Freaking teenagers…

I’d barely entered my living room when I heard their voices again. I jerked around and went back to the balcony. Don’t tell me…

No one was outside. The balcony was empty, and so was the area in front of the building.

What had I just heard?

Then I saw my phone. TikTok was still open, and the stupid livestream from before was still playing.

“Holy shit, bro, what the fuck was that?!”

“Did you guys see that? Did you just fucking see that?!”

As I picked up the phone, I saw that the two of them were still running.

The chat was going crazy. Messages were coming in at an almost astronomical speed. I could barely read anything, but what I did mentioned the words crazy person and squatter.

As I continued to listen, there was soon no doubt anymore. It was the same two guys, the same two idiot teenagers who’d just tried to break into my place.

Hadn’t they gone to some abandoned area, though? How’d they ended up here?

I reasoned, they’d given up on their urban exploring and went to fuck with people, but…

How’d they made it here so quickly? Wait, where exactly did they go? There weren’t any abandoned places nearby!

By now, more and more people in chat were asking about the abandoned area, about its location. When one of the hosts finally answered, I was even more confused. It was my area, my home. But, this place wasn’t abandoned! I lived here, people lived here! I was right here, sitting in my living room, there was my bedroom and over there… No, calm down, don’t be an idiot!

This was TikTok after all! Who knows, maybe that entire livestream was pre-recorded and in reality they went out to fuck with people for new content. Hell, maybe they found me on their follower list, saw I lived nearby, and decided to prank me or something. Yeah, that had to be it.

The more I tried to convince myself, however, the more I realized how ridiculous those scenarios were. Yet the alternative…

A new notification interrupted my thoughts. It was a new TikTok video, one just posted by the guys whose livestream I’d just watched.

When I read the title, I shivered.

Highlights of the CRAZIEST livestream EVER! Run-in with INSANE squatter! WE almost DIED!!! HOLY SHIT, guys!!!

I read the title again, then once more. With slightly shaking hands, I pressed play.

I watched as the two of them walked past abandoned buildings. Then they were at the apartment complex, moving their flashlights around. Finally, one of them tried to climb onto a balcony.

Right at that moment, an unkempt, bearded guy jumped from an opening that might once have been a balcony door.

“What the fuck?!” I heard him scream.

The phone slipped from my hands and my head spun. There was no way. There was no freaking way!

That was my voice, my face. Only it was… different. In the video, I looked dirty, unkempt, bearded. My voice sounded rougher, deeper, and, most of all… crazier.

I told myself I was wrong. This entire night was getting to me and my mind was playing tricks on me, that’s all.

Then I picked up the phone and played the video again.

There it was. My face. My voice.

I watched as my alter ego burst from the building, holding a metal rod in his hand. I heard, as I screamed at them in an almost incoherent voice. Almost. I understood enough.

“The hell do you think you’re doing!?”

It was the same words. The ones I’d screamed at them not even an hour ago.

In an instant, I threw the phone across the room. There was no way this was real. It had to be fake! Some sort of stupid trick, a deep fake or god knows what!

In an instant, I dashed into my bathroom, turned on the lights and stared at myself in the mirror. There I was, cleanly shaven, slightly muffled hair, but overall, pretty presentable.

Then, for a second, I could almost see my hair grow, could almost see the dirty unkempt beard and the crazy eyes I’d seen in the video.

I cringed back. No, it’s not fucking real!

Back in the living room, I shivered again. Why was it so cold? I could almost feel a breeze blowing through my apartment.

I checked the balcony door again, but it was closed. As I stared outside, however, I wondered.

How long had I lived here?

When had I last spoken to someone?

Hell, when had I last seen anyone else who lived here?

I’m sitting here now, typing this out in as much detail as I can.

I don’t know what the hell’s going on. With all of this. I mean, I’m right here, in my apartment, sitting on my living room couch!

Yet as I’m typing this, I can feel it again, this cold, almost freezing breeze. And every once in a while I almost can’t help going through a beard I know shouldn’t be there.

Hide-And-Seek

During Our Annual Village Fair, Our Entire Community Gets Together for a Game of

By everyone, I mean everyone: from the youngest members, toddlers and babies still held by their mothers, to the oldest, those needing walkers and wheelchairs.

These games have been held for as long as I can remember, and probably have been much, much longer. It’s tradition, so to speak, an old one.

Ours is a remote community. A small village, nestled between various forests and almost entirely isolated from the rest of the world. We rarely get visitors from outside, and whoever does never stays for long.

I guess we’re seen as a peculiar kind of people, one that’s a bit backwards.

When I was a child, I loved nothing more than these games of hide-and-seek. I would always look forward to this big event that everyone would play together.

Even as a child, though, I wondered why certain people were there.

Mrs. Meier, our first grade teacher, was a ghastly old lady who didn’t seem to know the word ‘play’ existed. Yet there she was.

I even remembered old eighty-seven-year-old Mrs. Ritter joining in on the fun after her accident. How she’d even be able to find a hiding place, wheelchair-bound as she was, was anyone’s guess. And it seemed, a year later, she’d realized she was a tad bit too old for it after all. For I never saw her at our annual game of hide-and-seek ever again.

What was fun as a boy, however, grew boring, even annoying the older I got. As a teenager, I’d long since grown tired of it. Traditions be damned, I thought.

Yet dad made sure I was always there, even if he had to drag me out of bed. Even worse, he’d always mention mom and how she would’ve wanted nothing more than for me to take part in the annual game of hide-and-seek. I hated it, and I hated him for exploiting her death in this way.

Whenever I complained about it, whenever I asked why we’d all have to do it, the only answer I ever got was that it was tradition. Yeah, a dumb, old, useless tradition. Why couldn’t we just enjoy the fair? Instead, we’d all have to go through this stupid ordeal on the morning of the second day…

What made it even worse, the event was always the same.

At first, the rules of the game were explained. They, too, were the same every year. A seeker would be chosen by drawing lots.

The seeker was never a child, never a teenager, and never one of the old people. No, it was always an adult. Each year, all the kids would beg to be made the seeker, but of course, they were never allowed.

This seeker would then count down for one minute, and during that time, everyone would have to find a hiding place on the fairgrounds.

Any place else was off-limits, and should you be caught having snuck off, you’d be in serious trouble. One of my friends once tried, and that alone landed him being grounded for the rest of the year. Why? I guess he went against that stupid tradition everyone was so obsessed with.

There was one difference compared to traditional games of hide-and-seek. The game always ended when the seeker had found a single person.

Today was another glorious day of hide-and-seek, but today, things were different for a variety of reasons.

First, I was a teenager now, and as a teenager, I learned that a village fair was about more than raffles and games. No, it was about dancing, and most of all, drinking.

Being the over-enthusiastic type I was, I got drunk, seriously drunk. So drunk, in fact, some of my friends had to escort me home. I knew fairly well what tradition would force me to do came morning, but I couldn’t have cared less. Or maybe I did care after all, and that’s why I got as drunk as I did. I don’t even remember.

When dad woke me up at eight in the morning, I was hungover. My entire body felt like shit, and I was suffering from a splitting headache.

Lying in bed, I groaned and just stared at him for a few seconds.

“Yeah, dad, sorry, but not this year. I feel like shit. Can’t you guys just do it without me for once?”

Of course, that didn’t work. The moment he’d heard my words, his face grew dark.

“Dammit, Daniel, you knew fair well what day today is, and you still… Just get the hell out of bed and get ready!”

I was about to protest once more, but he cut me off before I could so much as usher a word.

“Now, Daniel!”

With him still standing in the door, and under his stern eyes, I got dressed before I trudged after him.

As we made our way to the fair, I heard him mumble and curse to himself behind me. I didn’t understand what he was saying, but I knew it was about me. To be honest, I thought about skipping out more than once, and to just run home and go back to bed. But I knew that wouldn’t fly, not with him watching over me.

And so, we finally arrived at the center of the fairgrounds. As every other year before, all the village’s inhabitants were already there.

Kids were racing around laughing, excited about the coming game of hide-and-seek. Many of my friends, other teenagers, looked as uninterested as I was. For a moment, I watched some of the older people. Their eyes were tired, their expressions worried. Why’d we all have to go through with this? God, it was so damn stupid.

Even now, I still felt sick to my stomach, and after a while, I wasn’t even able to stand anymore. Instead, I set down on the ground, right there, in the grass. I couldn’t wait for this entire stupid ordeal to be over.

Then I got another idea. Fuck it, I told myself, I’d stay right here. The damned game was always over as soon as a single person was found. So if I’d simply stay here, that was it. Game over. Then I could just go back home and catch some much needed rest.

Once again, the rules were reiterated before it came to decide who today’s seeker would be.

As every year before, all the adults stepped forward, and one by one, picked their lot. To my surprise, it was dad who’d be today’s seeker.

When I saw his expression, I couldn’t help but laugh. He looked so lost, so confused, even frustrated.

Then he noticed me just sitting there, relaxing on the grass, and hurried over to me.

“What do you think you’re doing, Daniel? Get a freaking move on, for Christ’s sake!”

“Why can’t I just stay here? Then I’ll be the first person you find and the game is-“

“God dammit, Daniel!” he cut me off, snapping at me.

The moment he’d heard my words, all the color had drained from his face. His eyes were wide and his mouth was quivering. He opened it again as if to explain something to me, but then closed it and pulled me to my feet.

“I dare you son, you find yourself a hiding place right now, or…”

He was out of it, desperate even. He wasn’t screaming at me. No, he was pleading with me. I’d never seen him like this before, never, not even after mom had died.

I was confused, anxious even, and without knowing why, I nodded and set out.

Then dad returned to his position in the center, closed his eyes and started counting.

I listened to his voice. I watched as everyone, old and young, darted away. For the first time, I realized how surreal this entire situation was.

I’d witnessed it so many times, but only now did I really think about it.

Why’d dad act like that? Why’d he freak out?

Then, I wondered about something else. What happened when you were found?

I didn’t know. Neither I nor any of my friends had ever been found. No, I couldn’t recall anyone who’d ever been found. Suddenly, a cold shower went down my spine.

I stumbled on, hungover as I was, and realized that the minute was almost up. As the last seconds ticked by, my eyes darted around. On a whim, I rushed to a nearby stall, pushed myself behind a few old planks and tried my best to stay hidden.

From where I was, I heard dad announce that time was up, and he was now coming. His voice was shrill, so different from his usual deep one.

I saw him scanning the area nearby. Then he set out. With quick steps, he checked if someone was hiding between a few nearby trees before he swept through a couple of bushes. No one was there. Then he continued on, checking one of the nearby stalls, the one opposite me. I sat there, as quiet as I could, not daring to breathe.

For an entire minute, I watched as he desperately rummaged through the stall before he moved on to the next one. Why was he in such a hurry? Why was he taking this dumb thing so seriously?

At that moment, I saw someone else nearby. It was behind the stall dad was now approaching. Someone was hiding, or rather, sat slumped against its wall. It was Terrance Mueller, our very own resident drunk.

Until a year ago, Terrance had been a proud member of our community, a good worker. When his wife suddenly died, however, he’d taken to the bottle.

After he’d lost his job, he’d spent the past months at the village’s small bar, drinking away what little money he’d saved up over the years.

Hungover like me, or more accurate, already drunk, he too, hadn’t been able to find a good hiding place. All he’d done was to slump down behind a stall, probably hoping that dad would just walk past him.

I saw how he watched dad from behind the stall’s corner, trying his best to find out where he was going while staying hidden. A moment later, he lost his balance, stumbled from his hiding place, and crashed to the ground.

Dad noticed him instantly. A flood of emotions washed over his face. There was anger, frustration, and then nothing but sadness.

Terrance let out a terrified shriek and tried his best to scramble away, and to find himself a new hiding place.

“You know the rules, Terrance,” dad called after him.

The drunk stumbled on for a few more steps before he came to a halt. A moment later, dad reached him and put his hand on his shoulder.

When it happened, Terrance pushed him back, slurring curses at him I didn’t understand.

“God dammit Terrance, I don’t want to do this either, but it’s the only way!”

What the hell was dad talking about? The only way for… what?

By now, tears were streaming down Terrance’s cheeks. Once more, he pushed dad away, before all power seemed to leave him and he was about to fall to the ground once more. In a swift motion, dad held him up, steadied him before he whispered something into his ear.

Terrance’s eyes grew wide. He opened his mouth, most likely to spew another set of insults at dad, but then a dejected, hopeless look came over his face. Finally, he nodded.

Then the two of them set out together. I watched as dad led him away, away from the fairgrounds.

After sitting in my hiding place for a few more seconds, I pushed myself from the stall, and, trying my best to stay hidden, went after them. Eventually, they approached the edge of the nearby forest, and then ventured inside.

I didn’t know what was going on, didn’t know what was about to happen, but all those strange thoughts from before returned to me.

I’d barely made it past the first couple of trees when I saw them again. They were standing there, but I noticed something in Terrance’s hand, something he must’ve hidden until now. I watched in stunned horror as he lifted a hammer he must’ve found at the stall he was hiding at.

“Dad, watch out!” I called out.

In sheer and utter surprise, he jerked around, staring at me with wide, surprised eyes. It was this minute movement that saved his life. Terrance, drunk as he was, barely grazed dad’s head before he crashed to the ground, now cursing again.

“No, not me, not after Sara, not after…” I finally understood him.

Dad just stared down at him, holding onto the now bleeding wound on his head. In an instant, he kicked the hammer Terrance had been holding away.

By now, however, Terrance’s resistance was entirely broken. He just lay there on the ground, with tears streaming from his eyes.

“That’s enough Terrance. You lost. What would Sara say if she saw you like that?”

For a second, the drunk’s eyes focused on dad.

“You know nothing,” he brought out under tears. “That damned lot, when I found her, I…”

At that moment, I saw something.

Right in front of dad and Terrance, something moved between the trees. At first, I thought it was nothing but shadows.

The longer I looked, however, the more I focused on it, the more I knew that wasn’t right. It was a strange, slithering thing, one that was way too big to be any sort of forest animal.

I could do nothing but stare at whatever was out there in a mixture of stunned horror and overwhelming wonder. Branches broke, trunks were pushed aside before a multitude of bony arms pushed themselves from between the trees.

In an instant, dad was by my side. I was still staring at the mad spectacle in front of me, still couldn’t take my eyes from whatever it was I saw. Then dad slapped me across the face.

“Get back! We have to hide! And don’t you dare look at it, don’t you dare!”

With that, he dragged me back, back to the fairgrounds, and pushed me behind the nearest stall. Hidden, and sitting next to dad, I opened my mouth.

“What the-?” I started, but dad covered my mouth, shaking his head vehemently.

From where we were, we could hear the sounds. Something crashing through the forest. Distant, otherworldly sounds that might have been laughter reached our ears. In between, I could’ve sworn I heard Terrance’s voice.

For long minutes, dad and I just sat there. Finally, silence returned.

When it was over, I felt dad squeezing my shoulder. He gave me a well-meaning nod before he got up and motioned for me to come along.

In a loud, booming voice, he announced that this year’s game of hide-and-seek had ended.

For a moment, I scanned the forest ahead, almost waiting for Terrance to return, but he didn’t. No, he was gone.

Slowly, ever so slowly, everyone returned from their hiding places and gathered in the center of the fairgrounds. I heard the whispered conversations between the adults, between the older people, and a few times, I heard the name Terrance.

Eventually, everyone dispersed, and everyone returned to the fair’s merriment as if nothing had happened.

Children were laughing and complaining the game was already over, teenagers were joking about how dumb it all was, but here and there, I saw other expressions. Adults who couldn’t hide their emotions, their frustration at what had just happened.

Like me now, they all knew this was not just a dumb old tradition.

My eyes darted around, searching for dad. When I saw him, he was alone, already waiting for me, for the outburst he knew to come.

“What the hell was that… that thing? What’s going on? Why’s everyone just… Fuck!”

“Let’s go for a walk, son. We shouldn’t talk here, not with everyone around.”

I cursed once more, was about to lay into him, but the sad look on his face was enough to make me comply.

For a few minutes, we walked in silence as he led me to a bench far away from the bustle of the fair. Then, he started to explain.

No one knew what those things out there in the forest were. They arrived a long time ago, or they’d always been there, but one day, they came for the villagers.

Eventually, someone had made an arrangement with them. Once a year, they’d get what they wanted, if the rest of the village could live in peace.

“Then Terrance, no, this entire game, it-“

“It’s a selection, son. Whoever’s found first, is to become…”

His voice trailed off. He shook his head, and I saw tears coming to his eyes.

Suddenly, things fell into place. Certain little details I’d never wondered about before. Old Mrs. Ritter, who’d never joined into the game again after appearing in her wheelchair one year. My friend’s uncle, who’d used the game to sneak away from his wife and leave the village behind. And mom, mom who’d died on…

“Mom… that trip, that accident you told me about! It’s… no, don’t tell me…”

Dad, however, said nothing. He just sat there, his head in his hands, weeping. When he spoke again, his voice was as quiet as a whisper.

“No one wants to go through with it, son, but there’s no other choice. People tried to hide, to stay home, but, whenever they do, they are just… gone. Others tried to run, but whoever enters the forests, whoever tries to get away, is never heard from again.”

And so, I finally knew the truth. I knew what this stupid old tradition was about:

It was nothing but a selection, a selection to decide this year’s sacrifice.

Hall 37

I bet you’re laughing right now. You probably think I’m just some idiot with a terrible sense of direction. To be honest, you’re right about the latter, but I assure you, what I experienced is no laughing matter.

The day I got lost, I was working. Theoretically.

My colleague Frank and I were sent to represent our food company at one of the country’s biggest trade fairs.

It’s not a great job. Our boss couldn’t be bothered to pay for any of the extra baggage that came with it. No compensation for traveling, no extra payment for setting up the stall, nothing.

Even worse, our work hours would be long, as so often. We’d have to man the stall from early morning until late in the evening, pretending to be as happy to be there as the fairs many visitors. All the while, our boss insisted we wore those stupid caps with our company’s name on it.

Yet Frank and I had a little arrangement going to make the best of our shitty situation. He’d been in the trade business for most of his life, and he knew trade fairs inside-out. He knew when things would go slow, especially in the early morning or the late evening. Frank also knew that one person was enough to man the stall during those times. This allowed the other to roam the place, to relax or even take a nap.

The fair we attended that day was huge. It was held in a giant, sprawling complex comprising various halls, out areas, restaurants and much more, all connected by a variety of hallways. It was the equivalent of a small town.

After we’d finished getting the stall ready for business, Frank offered to take care of the morning shift. I was quick to agree.

I’d been wanting to have a look around ever since I arrived. It wasn’t a luxury we could usually afford since we were trapped in our stall for the fair’s entire duration.

What can I say? I like food, especially meat. When I’d seen there was an entire hall centering on exotic meat products, I had to go.

I wished Frank the best of luck with the morning shift, stuff the damned cap in my pocket and set out on my merry way.

Being the idiot I am, I just started walking and promptly got lost. The place really was huge, and even worse, everything looked the same.

After finding and tinkering with one of the interactive map displays, I figured out where I was and where I had to go: hall 19.

It wasn’t long, however, before I got lost again. In frustration, I consulted another map display, and learned I’d somehow taken a wrong turn, and was now in hall 12. Great, that’s in an entirely different wing of the complex.

This time, I snapped a picture of the map and followed it to the letter. Whenever I entered a new hall, I checked the big sign telling me which one it was before I cross-checked my position on the map.

I left hall 12, walked past hall 11, and eventually through hall 9. All that was left was to cross hall 14, and I’d be at my goal.

After crossing hall 14, however, and following another hallway, I suddenly found myself in front of hall 24.

I was dumbfounded and pulled out my phone again. For almost a minute, I went over the map, but as much as I searched, I didn’t find a hall 24. The highest hall number I could find was hall 22.

Still confused, but not sure what to do, I entered hall 24. After a few minutes of stumbling around, I found another map display. The small red dot told me I was indeed in hall 24. I frowned. How the hell was there even a hall 24?

When I compared the map in front of me to the one on my phone, I noticed something right away. The map in front of me was different. It was bigger and several halls seemed to have been added.

For a moment, a strange feeling washed over me and my eyes darted around looking for…I don’t know what. Everything around me was as normal as it could be. Visitors were checking out stalls, talking to sales representatives or indulging in the various samples.

Soon enough, however, something made me look up. So far, I’d hurried over the fair, not giving any of the stalls a better look. Now that I did, and really looked at them, I saw how strange some of the advertised products were.

Right in front of me, a stall was presenting a fruit called Fallarius. By that point, I’d been working in the food industry for a good few years, and I considered myself having a rather solid grasp on it. Yet in all those years, I’d never heard of a Fallarius. When I googled it, I came up with a big fat zero.

With my interest piqued, I approached the stall. Who knows, it might be one of those weird new mix-breeds that had grown in popularity.

What I saw, however, looked unlike anything I’d seen before. It was a slimy, bright orange thing, covered in some sort of spiky fur. The moment I’d made it to the counter, I couldn’t help but reach out for it. When my fingers made contact, however, the thing twitched and produced a disgusting wet squeak.

Cursing, I cringed back, landing me a few annoyed glances and not a few giggles.

For a few more moments, I stood there, staring at the stall and the weird orange fruit. Then, I shrugged, and went on my way.

Phone in hand, and staring at my map, I tried to find my way back.

After following what I assumed to be the same hallway I’d entered from, I should’ve been back in hall 14.

Yet the entire layout was different. A swift look at the hall sign told me I’d somehow ended up in hall 27. How the hell had I even gotten here? I’d followed the same damned hallway!

There should be an exit to my right, leading to an outer area, but it was gone. Instead, I saw another hallway, one that supposedly led to hall 31.

I frowned. How was the place that big? There shouldn’t even be a hall 31. Hell, there shouldn’t be a hall 27, and I should be in freaking hall 14! At least, if I were to trust the map on my phone.

For the next few minutes, I stumbled on, trying my best to ignore the strange, unknown products all around me. Here and there, I stopped, desperately searching for a map display, but saw none.

Suddenly, someone called out to me.

“Can I help you, sir?”

When I turned around, I saw an info desk worker. The woman had stopped a few meters away from me and must’ve noticed my predicament.

“Yeah, sorry. I guess I got lost,” I admitted, giving her an embarrassed laugh.

The woman, too, laughed, or rather giggled. It was a strangely throaty giggle. Only now that I focused on her did I see that most of her face was hidden behind strands of thick, dark hair.

“I’ve been trying to find hall 19, but the maps are…”

My voice trailed off. The longer I stared at the woman, the more I felt something was wrong with her. She just stood there, and I watched as she pulled out some sort of electronic contraption.

“Problem with maps,” she started, in a now much quieter voice. “Old versions.”

What the hell was she going on about? This was one of the biggest, most prestigious fairs in the entire country. Why’d they display older versions of the maps and how’d they just add a dozen new buildings to the complex? No, something didn’t add up.

“Where you want to go, sir?” she mumbled in her half-whispering voice.

She still hadn’t moved, still hadn’t bothered to brush her hair aside. As I listened to her, I wondered once more what the hell was wrong with her. Even her way of talking was strange. Her English was over-accentuated, but at the same time, it seemed to take her an effort to bring out each individual word.

“Hall 19,” I brought out eventually.

“Not far,” she simply said.

Then she turned around and began walking. The way she moved was as unnatural as the way she spoke. Instead of stepping forward, she merely shuffled her feet, dragging herself forward as if something was wrong with her legs. It made her entire body move in a strangely jerky motion.

“Coming, sir?” she asked after a few moments, but didn’t bother to even turn around.

Instead of moving, I just stared at her. Somehow, I knew I shouldn’t follow her. This woman wasn’t normal, not normal at all.

“No. I mean…I’m sure I can find it on my own. Thank you very much.”

Not even waiting for an answer, I hurried away. I half-ran past stalls and visitors, and only once I’d made it past a corner did I feel safe enough to relax.

I took a deep breath. Then I looked around, trying to find my bearings. It hadn’t been more than a few seconds when I heard the same half-whispered voice again.

“Can I help you, sir?”

It sounded exactly the same as before. The same over-accentuated English. When I looked over my shoulder, I saw her there, only a few meters behind me, staring at me from behind those thick strands of hair.

I couldn’t help but shiver. Why the hell was she following me?

Instead of saying anything, I turned around, hurried towards a hallway, and fled into another market hall.

Yet this new hall was even more different. Things just didn’t add up. The layout made no sense. Stalls were just placed haphazardly, with no rhyme or reason. When I checked the sign above to find out what hall I’d ended up in, I almost laughed. Instead of a number, all I saw were strange symbols.

The stalls, too, were covered in them. The products presented were even stranger than the Fallarius I’d seen before. They were utterly alien, seemed half alive.

I rushed past stalls and disgusting…things, as an overwhelming feeling of being lost, of not belonging, came over me.

Eventually, I stopped. I hid between two stalls, far away from the bustle of visitors, and closed my eyes. Don’t give into it. You’re okay, idiot. Just calm down.

Yet when I opened my eyes, I realized it wasn’t just the environment that was strange. The people were, too. They were all acting normal, but the way they moved, the way their bodies and limbs worked, was…wrong.

As I stared after a person, I couldn’t help but think that someone had taken them apart and put them back together the wrong way. They were human, yes, but a few details didn’t add up. Their arms seemed backwards, their facial features slightly warped, and their torso…

No, don’t focus on it. Just find your way back. Fuck hall 19, and go back to where you came from.

Taking another breath, I approached one of the strange people around me, a woman. I tried my best to ignore her weird body and strange face.

“Excuse me, I’m trying to get back to hall 7, but I’m-“

I trailed off when I noticed her wide eyes and confused expression. A fearful noise escaped her mouth before she turned around and hurried away.

As she did, I saw the way her legs moved. It looked like there were too many joints in them.

For a moment, I almost lost it because of the surreal situation I found myself in.

Then, I heard a strange, half-whispered, over-accentuated voice from nearby.

Sweat broke out all over my body. It’s a coincidence, I told myself. Yet when I turned around, I saw the same strange woman. This time, however, she wasn’t alone. She was talking to a pair of security guards. Both of them looked as strange as she was, and I shivered when I noticed the same jerky movements.

When she turned in my direction, I ran. I knew I shouldn’t, no, couldn’t be found by her again.

Yet when I looked over my shoulder, I saw that all three of them were looking after me.

I dashed away, turned right, then left, past haphazardly place stalls, not even sure what exactly I was running from. As I did, I pulled out the damned cap and threw away the jacket I was wearing. It wasn’t much, but maybe, just maybe, they wouldn’t recognize me.

The layout of the hall, however, was too disorienting. There wasn’t a place to hide, and I knew if I stayed here, it was only a matter before they’d discover me.

Then I saw a tightly knit group of people making their way toward a hallway. I instantly ran in their direction, trying to mingle, to hide between them. When I reached them, however, I saw how wrong they all were. Some were too short, others too tall. Some were shambling around while others were slumped over. In-between, I saw children running here and there. They were moving on all fours, more like animals than human beings. When one of them focused on me, I saw glaring animalistic eyes.

I pulled the cap deeper in my face before I pushed myself past the strange gathering and entered the hallway ahead.

This hallway, however, differed from any I’d seen before. It was small, almost constricting, more a tunnel than anything else. The floor was dirty, and the only light that reached me came from randomly placed yellowish lamps.

As strange as the place was, however, I could do nothing but hurry on. Driven by an almost primal fear of the woman and her companions, I ran on and eventually entered the hall at its end.

I’d barely crossed a few meters when I noticed just how strange the place was.

This wasn’t an orderly market hall. Neither was it one of the disorienting, haphazardly thrown together ones.

No, this place didn’t feel like it had been planned out or even constructed. It looked more like a shanty town, a place that had grown bigger and bigger over a long period.

The ground was as dirty as that of the hallway and a variety of stains and fluids covered it. I saw caskets and boxes everywhere, saw empty cages, and, occasionally, chunks of meat, discarded and left to rot. The air was heavy with a disgustingly sweet smell.

In an instant, I pushed myself past empty crates and behind a stack of boxes.

What the hell was this place?

My eyes darted around, trying to find out where I’d ended up at. Eventually, I found the sign, but the hall’s number was all wrong. At first I didn’t know what it said, but after a few seconds, I could decipher it. It was supposed to be hall 37. The numbers, however, they were backwards and distorted. They looked as if someone who’d never seen numbers before had written them.

That’s when it clicked.

It wasn’t just the sign, it was this entire place. This wasn’t a fair or a market hall. It was an imitation, one that was all wrong.

The people, the things populating this place, they too, were nothing but cheap imitations of the human form. They wore mismatched pieces of clothing, ones that were too small or too big, and shoes that didn’t fit. Their entire form was warped, as if something horrible was hidden below their outfits.

When I focused on one such person, a cold shower went down my spine. My entire body felt cold. A nervous chuckle almost escaped my mouth, and I had to scream at myself not to move until they’d passed.

What I’d thought was a face wasn’t. It was a mask, a drawing of a happy face frozen in a perpetual half-smile. But it was too simple, too cheap and reminded me of a child’s crayon drawing.

The strange person shuffled past my hiding place and then stopped in front of a stall, or something that was supposed to look like one. It was nothing but a crude construction made from wood and rubble, an amalgamation of trash. Hooks dangled from it here and there, each sprouting a chunk of raw, bloodied meat.

I watched as the thing approached a hook. In a swift motion, it tore down one of the dangling chunks and pushed it below its mask.

For a few seconds, it seemed to chew on the meat. Then a long, black tongue slithered out from under the mask and I watched as it licked blood and pinkish goo from its misshapen hand.

A while longer, the creature just stood there, staring at the remaining chunks of meat before it shuffled on.

By now, I saw that a similar creature manned the stall, one wearing another of the crayon-masks. A strange, grunt-like sound escaped its mouth when it saw the empty hook.

I watched in confused horror as it approached something covered by a piece of clothing. It was a cage and for a moment, it moved the cloth aside and seemed to check what was inside. When it did, I heard something: sobbing. The sobbing that was unmistakably that of a human being.

Another grunt. The cloth went back down, and then the creature vanished behind the stall, tearing aside a curtain I hadn’t even known was there. I only saw it for a moment, but I could’ve sworn I saw blood and gore, and something that might once have been a human body.

I barely covered my mouth and drown out the scream that had wanted to escape my mouth.

Then, still huddled between crates and boxes, I realized what those stains, those fluids on the floor all around me, had to be. Blood. Human blood.

Then those chunks of meat…

This time, I could do nothing and threw up right where I was.

Almost instantly, heads turned to where I was, heads sprouting the same smiling crayon-faces. In a frantic motion, I stumbled out from between crates and boxes. Before any of the creatures could react, I ran. I rushed past them, past the non-stalls they’d erected, and then back into the dark, tunnel-like hallway.

I’d almost made it, had almost escaped this hellhole of a place when a hand closed around my arm.

“Can I help you, sir?”

The same words, the same damned words. The same over-accentuated voice. As if to mock me, the strange woman, the thing in front of me, repeated them once more.

“Can I help you, sir?”

This time, I realized what was wrong with her voice.

It wasn’t the half-whispering, neither was it the over-accentuated English. No, it was the voice. It sounded as if someone, or something, was trying to emulate English. Another cheap imitation, another one that was all wrong.

“No, let me go! Let me fucking go!” I screamed at the thing.

I tore at the arm holding me in place, twisted my body, only to be pulled backwards.

At that moment, the hair that had covered the face was thrown aside. For the first time, I could make out its face.

I instantly cringed back. It wasn’t one of the simple crayon-like fakes. No, it looked almost real. Almost. It was a mask, but one made of skin, of lifeless, human skin. And then, something moved, but something that was hidden below. I could see a hidden mouth, could almost see it turn into the outlines of a twisted grin.

I screamed in terror, tried once more to get away, but it was too late. The commotion had been noticed.

From the entrance of the not-hall in the back, hulking, shambling figures were making their way towards us. By now, they weren’t even trying to keep their imitation alive anymore. No, all that remained of it were the empty, half-smiling crayon-faces.

“Can I help you, sir?” the thing next to me repeated once more.

This time, the words came out in the same throaty giggle I’d heard before.

The image of those cages returned to me, of the hooks and the chunks of meat dangling from them.

That would be me, I realized. This was what awaited me.

And then, my fear, my terror, was pushed aside by rage. No, it wouldn’t. I was not livestock. My free hand shot forward, and in a single motion, I tore apart the disgusting, dead skin covering the creature’s face.

What I saw below was nothing but twisted flesh and scar tissue. An inhumane shriek, one of outrage escaped its mouth, and I felt the hand holding onto me let go.

As the thing covered its face, I dashed away. I was out of the tunnel in an instant and then back into the disorganized hall. I didn’t lock back, didn’t want to see what was coming after me.

No, I just ran.

My legs led me through hall after hall, each stranger than the one before. They were all twisted and wrong. One seemed to be built vertically, with stalls stacked on top of one another continuously. Another was populated by stalls that seemed to have grown and were more alive than the beings moving between them.

More than once, figures pointed and stared at me. Some cringed away, for I was as alien to them as they to me. Yet sometimes, I felt hands reaching out for me, trying to hold me in place.

In sheer and utter panic, functioning purely by adrenalin, I ran on. My lungs were burning, my legs were getting weak. I had no goal, no direction. I just ran on, trying desperately to flee the surreal place my world had become.

Then I collided with someone stepping out in front of me. I stumbled, lost my balance, and crashed to the floor. I cursed, fought myself back up, and was about to rush on when a hand closed around my arm.

In my mind, I could already hear the same words, the same question.

Instead, I found myself face to face with a man who looked entirely human, a security guard. Yet I didn’t stop. I tried to get away and eventually pulled my arm free. This was nothing but another ploy, another fake who was out to get me. I stumbled another step, then another, before I fell once more.

My eyes darted around, searching for hulking, shambling figures, but all I saw was faces, normal faces. Some seemed worried, others confused. A group of teenagers nearby snickered behind their hands. I even saw a couple dragging their son away the moment I stared at them.

Yet they were all unmistakably human.

By now, the security guard had motioned for his colleagues to come over.

As they stood in front of me, their mouths moved, yet my brain didn’t seem to function.

Once more, one of them got a hold of me, pulling me to my feet. In an instant, however, I tore myself free again.

“The hell’s the matter with him?” one of them brought out.

Another mentioned the words ‘drunk’ and ‘drugs.’

I finally opened my mouth and began rambling about being followed, and hunted down before I closed it again.

“You saw what? Someone’s following you?”

“No,” I started shaking my head. “I mean, yes, there’s this woman and those men, but…”

My voice trailed off when I saw their expression and how they stared me down. It was clear they didn’t buy a word of what I was saying.

“I think it’s best for you to leave the premise, sir,” the one holding onto my arm eventually said, or rather, commanded.

With that, they swiftly escorted me from the complex.

Still confused, but more than relieved to finally having escaped the place, I made my way to our hotel.

When Frank arrived, he was pissed.

While I was sitting on the bed, he laid into me. He ranted on about where I’d been, what I thought I was doing, and even told me he’d informed the boss about me skipping out on the job.

I only half-listened, still plagued by what I’d seen just hours ago.

Eventually, Frank got a hold of my collar and pulled me up close.

“The fuck’s the matter with you, Danny?”

At first, I only stared at his angry face, but then I opened my mouth.

“I don’t know. I think I got…lost? No, never mind.”

When Frank heard this, he let go of me and the anger on his face evaporated.

“What happened? What did you see?”

Instead of answering, I shock my head and told him he wouldn’t believe me, anyway. For a moment, Frank continued staring at me, before he grumbled something, but left it at that.

Later that evening, though, when the two of us went out to have some beers, I finally opened up to him.

Frank listened without saying a word. Once I was done, though, I couldn’t help but laugh again. I told him I must be overworked, or that I’d had a panic attack.

Frank, however, didn’t join in my laughter. Instead, his face grew dark.

“No, you did get lost.”

“What are you-?”

“Listen, Danny, these days, they make these places, these fairs, too damn big. There’s too many people. It’s only natural that some get lost or end up in…places they don’t belong. Happens all the time, just no one ever talks about it.”

“How do you…?”

Frank didn’t answer. Instead, he just sat there, staring at his beer, avoiding my probing eyes.

“Best thing you can do is not to wander around and just stay at your stall,” he finally whispered.

When he looked up again, I saw his expression, saw the sad, anxious look that now filled it.

For the next couple of minutes, I pressed him to tell me what he meant. I asked him if he’d gotten lost himself, but Frank never said another word about it.

It’s been years since it all happened. I’m not working with Frank anymore, and I neither do I work at trade fairs.

I just…couldn’t do it. Whenever I went near those giant, disorienting halls, and saw the countless people entering them, I was pushed into a state of almost-panic.

In time, however, as the years went by, what happened that day became nothing but distant memories.

Just recently, though, having finally gotten over my fears, I visited one of our local trade fairs with a friend of mine.

As we walked from hall to hall, I couldn’t help but look around and watch my surroundings.

I saw them.

I saw the few select people who seemed bewildered and confused, who seemed lost. It’s always people who are a tad bit different, a tad bit wrong. People who just don’t seem to belong.

And I can always see those who are preying on them. Figures who pretend to be info desk workers, security guards and even sales representatives. And I can see them lead them away, lead them into directions that shouldn’t lead anywhere, or that lead somewhere else entirely.

The Cow King

When people think of their first pet, they talk about dogs or cats. For me, however, it was a cow.

Now, Lina wasn’t my cow, of course. She was one of many my grandpa owned.

Years ago, when I was a young boy, I spent the long weeks of summer vacation at his farm.

I grew up a city boy, spending most of my young live in a concrete jungle comprising nothing but rows and rows of old apartment buildings.

When grandpa suggested that I’d spent summer at his farm, I pestered my parents about it for weeks. Eventually they relented and so I was off to stay with grandpa.

Until then, I’d only been at grandpa’s home a few times, but I’d fallen in love with it the first time I’d been there.

I loved the remote farm he called his home, the wide empty plains and the sprawling forests surrounding them.

What I loved the most, though, were the many farm animals he owned. Even in his old age, grandpa was still a strong and sturdy man who continued to work his farm.

“Well, it’s the only thing I know how to do,” he always said laughing.

While grandpa owned pigs and chickens, I was more taken by his cows.

While the pigs in their pigsty ignored me, the chickens gave into a state of panic the moment I entered the coop to pet them.

The cows, however, were friendlier, much friendlier. When I walked up the pasture on my first day, they eyed me curiously before they walked up to me.

The friendliest of them was the one I named Lina. She was as black and white as the rest of them, but had a white crescent mark on her forehead.

Now, I didn’t get to enter the pasture, of course, but even with a fence between us, I could pet her head and feed her freshly mowed grass.

I spent long hours outside, in the grass, watching the cows go about their day and petting and feeding them, above all, Lina.

During the time I spent with grandpa, I learned quite a bit about cows and animal husbandry. Grandpa’s herd comprised dairy cows. Lina and the rest were kept for milk production.

I also learned that cows only gave milk when they were pregnant or with calf.

Even now I remembered how excited I was when I heard grandpa talk about calves. I pestered him constantly, but he told me that the time of birth varied. If I was lucky, though, I might see some of the newborn calves.

When I asked grandpa how all the cows got pregnant and where the father was, he explained to me what artificial insemination was. Well, he didn’t go into detail, instead he told me that sometimes, Mother Nature needed a bit of help and that it was the easiest and safest option.

Being the child I was, I thought little about it. No, all I cared about were the calves. There were of course some younger cows in grandpa’s herd, but they’d all been born in the spring. What I wanted to see was a newborn one, a tiny one.

As luck wanted it, I should get my chance soon enough.

I’d been with grandpa for a week when he told me that a cow had just given birth. The moment I heard a calf had been born, I was out of it and raced to the barn as fast as my little legs could carry me.

My young eyes grew wide the moment I saw the tiny body next to the exhausted mother cow. Even more so when the calf got to its shaky feet.

“It’s so small,” I brought out when grandpa caught up with me.

This baby cow, this calf, was the cutest thing I’d ever seen.

When I was about to step up to pet it, grandpa told me it was still too early. Everything was new for the little one, and for now it needed to get used to its environment.

I was on pins and needles all day, pestering grandpa about wanting to play with the little calf.

“Tomorrow, Mark, you can pet it tomorrow,” he eventually said.

Needless to say, I was disappointed, even a little mad. I remember sitting near the barn for hours, watching grandpa as he made sure that mother and calf were doing all right.

The next day, right after breakfast, when grandpa did another check-up, I finally got my chance of scratching the calf behind its ears. I loved the little guy and continued to visit him day in and out until he joined the rest of the herd out in the pasture.

I’d done my best to bond with the little guy, but he was too shy and scared to approach me on his own. In the end, Lina stayed my favorite.

Yet, one day, things changed at grandpa’s farm. One morning, right after breakfast, I could tell that something was different.

I rushed outside to greet Lina and the rest of the herd, but the cows were acting different. They huddled together at the far end of the pasture, their bodies pressed against one another. However much I called out to them, however much I waved a tuft of fresh grass, they didn’t come.

I raced back to grandpa.

“Grandpa, there’s something wrong with the cows, they are sick! They aren’t coming to me, not even Lina!”

When he saw the visible fear on my face, he laughed.

“Calm down, Mark. That’s just the way they are. They are beasts after all and sometimes, they just don’t care.”

I nodded, but I didn’t understand. For the rest of the day and the following one I tried again and again, but the cows never came. Their state of fear persisted.

After days, whatever had gotten into them passed, and they slowly reverted to their normal behavior. Yet, I noticed, some still strayed from the rest.

My fears, however, were forgotten the moment Lina came up to me again and happily let me pet her.

Over the course of the next two weeks, more calves were born, and I was always there when they first got to their feet. It was always a special event for me.

One day, when I heard that yet another one of grandpa’s cows was to give birth, I was quick to hurry to the barn, only to be met with Stefan, grandpa’s single farmhand.

I’d seen him around before, but he was a harsh, bitter man and I’d always avoided him. Now he stood right in front of me, staring down at me with cold eyes.

“Nothing to see here today, boy,” he said as he blocked my path.

“But, I want to see the baby cow,” I protested and was about to push myself past him.

In one swift motion, he got a hold of my arm and glared at me.

“There’s none today. Now go back to where you came from,” he pressed out and pushed me back the way I came from.

“No, but,” I tried to protest, but when he stepped up to me again, the corners of his mouth twitching in anger, I eventually left.

I sat down in the grass near the meadow, mulling over how unfair it all was. It was stupid I didn’t get to see the calf, and Stefan was even more stupid and so was grandpa!

After a while, as I sat there in the grass, I noticed smoke coming from the back of the farm.

For a moment I wondered what was going on before my childish mind realized that the farm must’ve caught on fire. As quickly as I could, I ran to where the smoke was coming from.

Behind the farm, I found grandpa and Stefan in front of a fire. They were burning something.

At first I was relieved, glad it wasn’t the farm that was burning. Then, when I got closer, my eyes glued to the fire, I saw something move between the burning logs.

At first I didn’t know what it was, but when I got closer, I saw limbs, legs, a bunch of tiny legs that were sticking out from the fire.

When I saw them twitch once more, I rushed for the fire, past grandpa, to pull what I thought was a calf from the burning pit.

The moment grandpa saw me, he got a hold of me and dragged me away from the fire.

“Mark, what’s the matter with you, get away from there! This is nothing for a little boy like you, it’s dangerous!”

As he dragged me away, my eyes were glued to the fire and the thing burning within it. From afar it had looked like a calf, but the moment I got closer I saw it was something else. The proportions had been all wrong, weird and elongated. There were legs, but far too many of them. I shivered as grandpa dragged me away.

He sat me down on a bench in front of the farmhouse. After a heavy sigh, he explained.

“Sometimes, there are… complications. Sometimes a calf can come out all wrong. It’s nature, and sometimes, nature doesn’t get things right and parts end up in the wrong place.”

“But, why? Why was it all wrong, grandpa?”

He gave me a shrug.

“That’s just how things are, nothing to be done about it.”

I gave him a slow nod, but I still felt for the thing they’d burned. For days, the strange, misshapen calf stayed on my mind.

It did even more so when Stefan joined us for breakfast one morning, whispering something into grandpa’s ear. The bright smile he usually wore vanished.

“Stay here, Mark, all right?” he said to me while I was munching on my sandwich.

I opened my mouth to ask something, but grandpa and Stefan had already left the room.

When I was about to put on my shoes and follow them, grandpa yelled at me to stay inside. It was the first time I’d ever seen him like this, and the first time he’d ever been angry with me.

The shoes dropped from my hand and with tears in my eyes I sulked back to the living room.

I never learned what happened that day. Grandpa never told me a thing, and Stefan continued to glare at me like he usually did.

It was only one day, by sheer accident, that I caught bits of a conversation between the two of them.

“So, how many this time?” I heard grandpa ask.

“At least four of them,” Stefan pressed out in a strained voice.

For a while there was nothing but silence, and all I could hear was the quiet summer breeze rustling through the nearby trees.

Eventually grandpa sighed. “Guess it’s grown angry,” he finally said.

Stefan started cursing and mumbling indistinguishable.

“Well, nothing we can do about it. Just have to take care of them like we always do,” grandpa brought out.

A moment later I heard his steps coming into my direction and I hurried away. Yet, his words stayed on my mind.

‘Guess it’s grown angry.’

For days I racked my brain, trying to understand what he was talking about.

Of course, I couldn’t, I was a little boy, but one night should change everything.

That night I’d been lying in bed for long hours, still racking my brain over the strange things going on at the farm. When I fell asleep, strange dreams plagued me. I saw the weird calf-thing in the fire again, saw it move, heard it cry out for me.

I awoke, scared and confused, before I realized it had all been a dream. At first, I lay in bed, but then I realized I had to go to the toilet.

I hated going to the toilet at grandpa’s during the night. The farmhouse was old and at night you could hear any and all sounds around the farm. For a child, even the shaking of the trees and the sound of the wind were transformed into shapeless ghosts and invisible terrors.

I raced to the toilet and as I sat there, the window cracked behind me, I heard something from outside.

As I strained my ears, I could hear the mooing of the cows outside. It didn’t sound like anything I’d heard before. They sounded afraid, terrified, as if chaos had descended upon the pasture.

I tried to pry open the bathroom window, but wasn’t able to. So instead, I tiptoed through the house and made my way to the living room. I pushed my face against the glass of the window, but I couldn’t make out a thing. All I saw was frantic movement in the pasture.

Eventually, my hand wandered to the handle. As slowly and quietly as I could, I pulled and opened the window. I leaned forward as far as I could, pushing my upper body outside.

At first, I could only see the cows racing from one end of the pasture to the other, but then I noticed something else. There was something in the pasture with them.

For a moment I thought it was one of the cows, one that hadn’t joined the frantic, crazed movements, but then I saw how big it was.

It was a towering, hulking shadow, much larger than any cow I’d ever seen before.

I leaned forward further, almost dropping out the window.

Then, the moon pushed past the clouds and its light descended upon the pasture. I saw a multitude of legs, saw a black and white hide, saw a pair of horns. The creature threw its head back, releasing a grunt, a loud distorted version of a moo before it charged after the cows.

The herd was in sheer and utter panic, dividing and forming up again as they fled from whatever this monstrosity was.

Suddenly, one cow rushed off in the wrong direction, charging towards the farm while the rest fled further down the pasture.

Another loud grunt followed, and the monstrosity threw itself at the lonely cow. And just then, as the cow crashed against the fence of the pasture, I noticed the white crescent mark on her forehead.

“No,” I brought out in a shaken voice as I saw how the creature got a hold of Lina.

I watched in horror as the abomination pushed itself on top of her.

I opened my mouth, wanted to scream, to call out, to chase the demon away, but just then a hand was pushed over my mouth.

“Don’t you dare,” I heard grandpa’s voice whisper into my ear.

He dragged me back, away from the window. Then he closed it off with his other hand before he pushed me from the room.

“We have to help Lina!” I blurted out the moment he removed his hand. “Grandpa, come on, we have to!”

With that I was about to rush to the front door, but I’d only made it two steps before he got a hold of me.

“Nothing we can do, Mark.”

“But,” I pleaded, but he shook his head.

When the tears started streaming from my eyes, he pulled me in close and put his arm around me.

“It’s all right, Mark, it’s all right,” he whispered as he hugged me.

When the tears stopped flowing, he took my hand and led me back to my little bedroom. He sat with me, whispering to me, until I’d fallen asleep again.

When I woke up the next morning, I was startled and confused about the events of last night. I threw the covers aside, thinking about what I’d seen, about Lina, and raced through the house.

“Grandpa!” I called out repeatedly, desperately trying to find him.

The moment I found him, he laughed.

“Now what’s all this ruckus about this early in the morning?”

“Last night, the cows, and Lina, and that, that thing,” I rambled.

“Now, now, what are you talking about?”

“The monster, in the pasture, the one that went after Lina! You were there in the living room and, and-“

“You had a bad dream, Mark, that’s all. Lina’s all right and so is the rest of the heard,” he said, giving me a warm smile.

“Now, how about some breakfast?”

Now, of course, I didn’t give up, but grandpa assured me he’d been fast asleep all night, there’d been no noises and there had been no monsters.

What can I say, I was a little kid after all and so, I believed him.

Before long, my stay at grandpa’s home ended, and I returned to the city and the concrete jungle that was my home.

While I had fond memories of the weeks I’d spent with grandpa, the experience was haunted by that terrible night, that terrible dream.

The school year came and went, but next summer I didn’t return to grandpa’s farm, I couldn’t. I was only ever there with my parents, on short, rare visits, but it never felt the same again.

An oppressive atmosphere hung over the old farmhouse and had transformed the place I’d loved so much into something darker, something sinister.

I’m an adult now, and for long years I’d never returned to his farm. It was a month ago that I finally went on one last trip there with my parents.

Grandpa was older now, much older. The strong, sturdy farmer of my childhood had been replaced by a tiny, shriveled old man that seemed lost in his own bed.

A stroke, the doctor had told us. At his age, recovery was out of the question.

For long hours we sat with him, watching over him. When my mother couldn’t take it anymore, my father led her from the room.

Left alone, next to his sleeping body, I took out my phone. I was browsing the web, listening to his low, rattling breath, when a bony hand suddenly gripped my arm. Grandpa’s eyes were wide open, staring right at me.

His mouth was moving, but nothing but another low rattle escaped his mouth.

“Grandpa, what is it? Are you okay? Are you in pain? Do you want me to-?”

I broke up when his nails dug into my arm and he pulled me closer.

“You’ve got to,” he pressed out, his voice as quiet as a whisper.

“I’ve got to what?”

Grandpa was panting, breathing hard, sweat glistening on his forehead.

“Make sure there’s never more than one of them!”

“More than one of what?”

“You saw,” he brought out. “That night, that thing, you saw.”

“Saw what?” I asked, but the answer came to me a moment later.

He wrinkled his brow, opened his mouth again, but it took him long seconds to bring forth the words.

His voice was as thin as a whisper, but I heard the two words he was saying.

Eventually his voice trailed off and after a second his grip loosened. He held my gaze for another long second before he closed his eyes again.

For a second I thought the worst had happened, but then I saw the small of his chest moving. He’d fallen asleep.

Yet, my fears hadn’t vanished, my terrors hadn’t evaporated. I knew what he’d said just now, what he’d told me.

That night so long ago, the night he’d told me had been nothing but a dream, had been real. What I’d seen out there had been all but real, and as an adult, I finally understood what I’d witnessed.

Some sort of creature was out there, out in the wild, and on certain nights it came here. It came for the cows to spread its seed and to create its ghastly offspring.

I don’t know what that thing is, I don’t know where it came from, but even now, even after grandpa’s funeral, I remember what grandpa had called it.

The Cow King.

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